My journey from Marine to actor
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0:01 - 0:03I was a Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company,
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0:03 - 0:0481's platoon,
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0:04 - 0:06out in Camp Pendleton, California.
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0:07 - 0:08Oorah!
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0:08 - 0:09Audience: Oorah!
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0:09 - 0:10(Laughter)
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0:10 - 0:12I joined a few months after September 11,
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0:12 - 0:15feeling like I think most people
in the country did at the time, -
0:15 - 0:18filled with a sense
of patriotism and retribution -
0:18 - 0:20and the desire to do something --
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0:20 - 0:23that, coupled with that fact
that I wasn't doing anything. -
0:23 - 0:26I was 17, just graduated
from high school that past summer, -
0:26 - 0:29living in the back room
of my parents' house paying rent, -
0:29 - 0:31in the small town I was raised in
in Northern Indiana, -
0:31 - 0:32called Mishawaka.
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0:32 - 0:35I can spell that later
for people who are interested -- -
0:35 - 0:36(Laughter)
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0:36 - 0:40Mishawaka is many good things
but cultural hub of the world it is not, -
0:40 - 0:42so my only exposure to theater and film
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0:42 - 0:44was limited to the plays
I did in high school -
0:44 - 0:46and Blockbuster Video,
may she rest in peace. -
0:46 - 0:47(Laughter)
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0:47 - 0:49I was serious enough about acting
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0:49 - 0:52that I auditioned for Juilliard
when I was a senior in high school, -
0:52 - 0:54didn't get in,
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0:54 - 0:56determined college wasn't for me
and applied nowhere else, -
0:56 - 0:58which was a genius move.
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0:58 - 1:01I also did that Hail Mary
LA acting odyssey -
1:01 - 1:03that I always heard stories about,
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1:03 - 1:05of actors moving to LA
with, like, seven dollars -
1:05 - 1:07and finding work and successful careers.
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1:07 - 1:11I got as far as Amarillo, Texas,
before my car broke down. -
1:11 - 1:12I spent all my money repairing it,
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1:12 - 1:14finally made it to Santa Monica --
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1:14 - 1:15not even LA --
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1:15 - 1:18stayed for 48 hours wandering
the beach, basically, -
1:18 - 1:19got in my car, drove home,
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1:19 - 1:21thus ending my acting career, so --
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1:21 - 1:22(Laughter)
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1:22 - 1:24Seventeen, Mishawaka ...
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1:24 - 1:28parents' house, paying rent,
selling vacuums ... -
1:28 - 1:30telemarketing,
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1:30 - 1:32cutting grass at the local
4-H fairgrounds. -
1:32 - 1:34This was my world
going into September, 2001. -
1:34 - 1:35So after the 11th,
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1:35 - 1:38and feeling an overwhelming sense of duty,
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1:38 - 1:40and just being pissed off
in general -- at myself, -
1:40 - 1:41my parents, the government;
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1:41 - 1:44not having confidence,
not having a respectable job, -
1:44 - 1:47my shitty mini-fridge that I just
drove to California and back -- -
1:47 - 1:50I joined the Marine Corps and loved it.
I loved being a Marine. -
1:50 - 1:53It's one of the things I'm most proud
of having done in my life. -
1:53 - 1:54Firing weapons was cool,
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1:54 - 1:57driving and detonating
expensive things was great. -
1:57 - 1:59But I found I loved
the Marine Corps the most -
1:59 - 2:01for the thing I was looking
for the least when I joined, -
2:01 - 2:03which was the people:
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2:03 - 2:06these weird dudes --
a motley crew of characters -
2:06 - 2:09from a cross section
of the United States -- -
2:09 - 2:11that on the surface I had
nothing in common with. -
2:11 - 2:13And over time,
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2:13 - 2:14all the political and personal bravado
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2:14 - 2:16that led me to the military dissolved,
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2:16 - 2:19and for me, the Marine Corps
became synonymous with my friends. -
2:19 - 2:22And then, a few years into my service
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2:22 - 2:24and months away from deploying to Iraq,
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2:24 - 2:27I dislocated my sternum
in a mountain-biking accident, -
2:27 - 2:28and had to be medically separated.
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2:28 - 2:31Those never in the military
may find this hard to understand, -
2:31 - 2:34but being told I wasn't getting deployed
to Iraq or Afghanistan -
2:34 - 2:36was very devastating for me.
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2:36 - 2:39I have a very clear image of leaving
the base hospital on a stretcher -
2:39 - 2:42and my entire platoon is waiting
outside to see if I was OK. -
2:42 - 2:44And then, suddenly,
I was a civilian again. -
2:44 - 2:47I knew I wanted to give
acting another shot, -
2:47 - 2:49because -- again, this is me --
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2:49 - 2:52I thought all civilian problems
are small compared to the military. -
2:52 - 2:55I mean, what can you really
bitch about now, you know? -
2:55 - 2:56"It's hot.
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2:57 - 2:59Someone should turn
on the air conditioner." -
2:59 - 3:01"This coffee line is too long."
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3:01 - 3:02I was a Marine,
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3:02 - 3:03I knew how to survive.
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3:04 - 3:05I'd go to New York and become an actor.
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3:05 - 3:07If things didn't work out,
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3:07 - 3:10I'd live in Central Park
and dumpster-dive behind Panera Bread. -
3:10 - 3:11(Laughter)
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3:11 - 3:13I re-auditioned for Juilliard
and this time I was lucky, -
3:14 - 3:15I got in.
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3:15 - 3:17But I was surprised
by how complex the transition was -
3:17 - 3:19from military to civilian.
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3:19 - 3:22And I was relatively healthy; I can't
imagine going through that process -
3:22 - 3:24on top of a mental or physical injury.
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3:24 - 3:26But regardless, it was difficult.
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3:26 - 3:28In part, because I was in acting school --
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3:28 - 3:31I couldn't justify going
to voice and speech class, -
3:32 - 3:35throwing imaginary balls of energy
at the back of the room, -
3:35 - 3:37doing acting exercises
where I gave birth to myself -- -
3:37 - 3:38(Laughter)
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3:38 - 3:41while my friends were serving
without me overseas. -
3:41 - 3:44But also, because I didn't
know how to apply the things -
3:44 - 3:46I learned in the military
to a civilian context. -
3:46 - 3:48I mean that both practically
and emotionally. -
3:48 - 3:50Practically, I had to get a job.
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3:50 - 3:52And I was an Infantry Marine,
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3:52 - 3:54where you're shooting machine guns
and firing mortars. -
3:54 - 3:58There's not a lot of places you can
put those skills in the civilian world. -
3:58 - 3:59(Laughter)
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3:59 - 4:01Emotionally, I struggled to find meaning.
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4:01 - 4:03In the military, everything has meaning.
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4:03 - 4:05Everything you do
is either steeped in tradition -
4:05 - 4:07or has a practical purpose.
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4:07 - 4:08You can't smoke in the field
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4:08 - 4:10because you don't want
to give away your position. -
4:10 - 4:13You don't touch your face --
you have to maintain -
4:13 - 4:15a personal level of health and hygiene.
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4:15 - 4:17You face this way when "Colors" plays,
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4:17 - 4:19out of respect for people
who went before you. -
4:19 - 4:21Walk this way, talk this way
because of this. -
4:21 - 4:23Your uniform is maintained to the inch.
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4:23 - 4:25How diligently you followed
those rules spoke volumes -
4:25 - 4:27about the kind of Marine you were.
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4:27 - 4:29Your rank said something
about your history -
4:29 - 4:31and the respect you had earned.
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4:31 - 4:32In the civilian world there's no rank.
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4:32 - 4:34Here you're just another body,
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4:34 - 4:37and I felt like I constantly had
to prove my worth all over again. -
4:37 - 4:40And the respect civilians were giving me
while I was in uniform -
4:40 - 4:42didn't exist when I was out of it.
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4:42 - 4:44There didn't seem to be a ...
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4:44 - 4:45a sense of community,
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4:45 - 4:47whereas in the military,
I felt this sense of community. -
4:47 - 4:49How often in the civilian world
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4:50 - 4:53are you put in a life-or-death situation
with your closest friends -
4:53 - 4:56and they constantly demonstrate
that they're not going to abandon you? -
4:56 - 4:58And meanwhile, at acting school ...
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4:58 - 5:01(Laughter)
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5:01 - 5:03I was really, for the first time,
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5:03 - 5:05discovering playwrights
and characters and plays -
5:05 - 5:07that had nothing to do with the military,
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5:07 - 5:09but were somehow describing
my military experience -
5:09 - 5:12in a way that before
to me was indescribable. -
5:12 - 5:14And I felt myself becoming less aggressive
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5:14 - 5:17as I was able to put words
to feelings for the first time -
5:17 - 5:20and realizing what
a valuable tool that was. -
5:20 - 5:22And when I was reflecting
on my time in the military, -
5:22 - 5:25I wasn't first thinking
on the stereotypical drills -
5:25 - 5:26and discipline and pain of it;
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5:26 - 5:28but rather, the small,
intimate human moments, -
5:28 - 5:30moments of great feeling:
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5:30 - 5:32friends going AWOL
because they missed their families, -
5:32 - 5:34friends getting divorced,
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5:34 - 5:36grieving together, celebrating together,
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5:36 - 5:37all within the backdrop of the military.
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5:38 - 5:40I saw my friends battling
these circumstances, -
5:40 - 5:43and I watched the anxiety
it produced in them and me, -
5:43 - 5:45not being able to express
our feelings about it. -
5:46 - 5:49The military and theater communities
are actually very similar. -
5:49 - 5:52You have a group of people
trying to accomplish a mission -
5:52 - 5:54greater than themselves;
it's not about you. -
5:54 - 5:57You have a role, you have to know
your role within that team. -
5:57 - 5:59Every team has a leader or director;
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5:59 - 6:02sometimes they're smart,
sometimes they're not. -
6:02 - 6:04You're forced to be intimate
with complete strangers -
6:04 - 6:06in a short amount of time;
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6:06 - 6:08the self-discipline, the self-maintenance.
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6:08 - 6:11I thought, how great would it be
to create a space -
6:11 - 6:14that combined these two seemingly
dissimilar communities, -
6:14 - 6:16that brought entertainment
to a group of people -
6:16 - 6:18that, considering their occupation,
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6:18 - 6:21could handle something
a bit more thought-provoking -
6:21 - 6:23than the typical mandatory-fun events
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6:23 - 6:26that I remember being
"volun-told" to go to in the military -- -
6:26 - 6:27(Laughter)
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6:27 - 6:29all well-intended but slightly
offensive events, -
6:29 - 6:32like "Win a Date with a San Diego
Chargers Cheerleader," -
6:32 - 6:34where you answer a question
about pop culture, -
6:34 - 6:36and if you get it right you win a date,
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6:36 - 6:38which was a chaperoned walk
around the parade deck -
6:38 - 6:41with this already married,
pregnant cheerleader -- -
6:41 - 6:42(Laughter)
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6:42 - 6:44Nothing against cheerleaders,
I love cheerleaders. -
6:44 - 6:47The point is more, how great would it
be to have theater presented -
6:47 - 6:51through characters that were accessible
without being condescending. -
6:51 - 6:54So we started this nonprofit
called Arts in the Armed Forces, -
6:54 - 6:55where we tried to do that,
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6:55 - 6:58tried to join these two seemingly
dissimilar communities. -
6:58 - 7:02We pick a play or select monologues
from contemporary American plays -
7:02 - 7:06that are diverse in age and race
like a military audience is, -
7:06 - 7:08grab a group of incredible
theater-trained actors, -
7:08 - 7:10arm them with incredible material,
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7:10 - 7:12keep production value
as minimal as possible -- -
7:12 - 7:15no sets, no costumes,
no lights, just reading it -- -
7:15 - 7:18to throw all the emphasis on the language
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7:18 - 7:21and to show that theater can
be created at any setting. -
7:21 - 7:22It's a powerful thing,
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7:22 - 7:25getting in a room with complete strangers
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7:25 - 7:27and reminding ourselves of our humanity,
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7:27 - 7:30and that self-expression
is just as valuable a tool -
7:30 - 7:31as a rifle on your shoulder.
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7:31 - 7:33And for an organization like the military,
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7:33 - 7:36that prides itself on having
acronyms for acronyms, -
7:36 - 7:38you can get lost in the sauce
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7:38 - 7:40when it comes to explaining
a collective experience. -
7:40 - 7:42And I can think of no better community
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7:42 - 7:44to arm with a new means of self-expression
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7:44 - 7:46than those protecting our country.
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7:46 - 7:49We've gone all over
the United States and the world, -
7:49 - 7:51from Walter Reed in Bethesda, Maryland,
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7:51 - 7:54to Camp Pendleton,
to Camp Arifjan in Kuwait, -
7:54 - 7:56to USAG Bavaria,
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7:56 - 7:58on- and off-Broadway theaters in New York.
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7:58 - 8:00And for the performing artists we bring,
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8:00 - 8:02it's a window into a culture
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8:02 - 8:04they otherwise would not
have had exposure to. -
8:04 - 8:06And for the military, it's the exact same.
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8:06 - 8:08And in doing this for the past six years,
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8:08 - 8:10I'm always reminded
that acting is many things. -
8:10 - 8:13It's a craft, it's a political act,
it's a business, it's -- -
8:14 - 8:16whatever adjective
is most applicable to you. -
8:16 - 8:17But it's also a service.
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8:18 - 8:19I didn't get to finish mine,
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8:19 - 8:21so whenever I get to be of service
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8:21 - 8:24to this ultimate service industry,
the military, for me, again -- -
8:24 - 8:26there's not many things better than that.
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8:26 - 8:27Thank you.
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8:27 - 8:32(Applause)
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8:32 - 8:36We're going to be doing a piece
from Marco Ramirez, -
8:36 - 8:38called "I am not Batman."
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8:38 - 8:41An incredible actor
and good friend of mine, Jesse Perez, -
8:41 - 8:42is going to be reading,
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8:42 - 8:44and Matt Johnson,
who I just met a couple hours ago. -
8:44 - 8:47They're doing it together
for the first time, -
8:47 - 8:48so we'll see how it goes.
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8:48 - 8:50Jesse Perez and Matt Johnson.
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8:50 - 8:53(Applause)
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9:01 - 9:03Jesse Perez: It's the middle of the night
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9:03 - 9:05and the sky is glowing
like mad, radioactive red. -
9:05 - 9:07And if you squint,
you can maybe see the moon -
9:07 - 9:10through a thick layer of cigarette smoke
and airplane exhaust -
9:10 - 9:11that covers the whole city,
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9:11 - 9:14like a mosquito net
that won't let the angels in. -
9:14 - 9:15(Drum beat)
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9:15 - 9:16And if you look up high enough,
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9:16 - 9:20you can see me standing
on the edge of an 87-story building. -
9:20 - 9:23And up there, a place for gargoyles
and broken clock towers -
9:23 - 9:26that have stayed still and dead
for maybe like 100 years, -
9:26 - 9:28up there is me.
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9:28 - 9:29(Beat)
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9:29 - 9:30And I'm frickin' Batman.
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9:30 - 9:31(Beat)
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9:31 - 9:34And I gots Batmobiles and batarangs
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9:34 - 9:36and frickin' bat caves, like, for real.
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9:36 - 9:38And all it takes is a broom closet
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9:38 - 9:40or a back room or a fire escape,
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9:40 - 9:43and Danny's hand-me-down jeans are gone.
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9:43 - 9:45And my navy blue polo shirt,
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9:45 - 9:48the one that looks kinda good on me
but has that hole on it near the butt -
9:48 - 9:51from when it got snagged
on the chain-link fence behind Arturo's -
9:51 - 9:54but it isn't even a big deal
because I tuck that part in -
9:54 - 9:55and it's, like, all good.
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9:55 - 9:57That blue polo shirt -- it's gone, too!
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9:57 - 10:00And I get like, like ... transformational.
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10:00 - 10:01(Beat)
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10:01 - 10:05And nobody pulls out a belt
and whips Batman for talkin' back. -
10:05 - 10:06(Beat)
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10:06 - 10:07Or for not talkin' back.
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10:07 - 10:10And nobody calls Batman simple
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10:10 - 10:11or stupid
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10:11 - 10:12or skinny.
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10:13 - 10:16And nobody fires Batman's brother
from the Eastern Taxi Company -
10:16 - 10:18'cause they was making cutbacks, neither.
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10:18 - 10:20'Cause they got nothing but respect.
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10:20 - 10:22And not like afraid-respect,
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10:22 - 10:25just, like, respect-respect.
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10:25 - 10:26(Laughter)
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10:26 - 10:27'Cause nobody's afraid of you.
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10:27 - 10:29'Cause Batman doesn't mean nobody no harm.
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10:29 - 10:30(Beat)
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10:30 - 10:32Ever.
(Double beat) -
10:32 - 10:34'Cause all Batman really wants
to do is save people -
10:34 - 10:36and maybe pay abuela's bills one day
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10:36 - 10:37and die happy.
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10:37 - 10:39And maybe get, like, mad-famous for real.
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10:40 - 10:41(Laughter)
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10:41 - 10:42Oh -- and kill the Joker.
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10:42 - 10:43(Drum roll)
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10:43 - 10:46Tonight, like most nights, I'm all alone.
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10:46 - 10:48And I'm watchin' and I'm waitin'
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10:48 - 10:49like a eagle
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10:49 - 10:51or like a --
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10:51 - 10:52no, yeah, like a eagle.
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10:52 - 10:53(Laughter)
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10:53 - 10:56And my cape is flapping in the wind
cause it's frickin' long -
10:56 - 10:58and my pointy ears are on,
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10:58 - 11:01and that mask that covers like half
my face is on, too, -
11:01 - 11:04and I got, like, bulletproof stuff
all in my chest so no one can hurt me. -
11:04 - 11:06And nobody -- nobody! --
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11:06 - 11:08is gonna come between Batman ...
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11:08 - 11:09and justice.
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11:09 - 11:11(Drums)
(Laughter) -
11:11 - 11:12From where I am,
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11:12 - 11:14I can hear everything.
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11:14 - 11:15(Silence)
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11:15 - 11:16Somewhere in the city,
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11:16 - 11:20there's a old lady picking
Styrofoam leftovers up out of a trash can -
11:20 - 11:23and she's putting a piece
of sesame chicken someone spit out -
11:23 - 11:24into her own mouth.
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11:24 - 11:27And somewhere there's a doctor
with a wack haircut in a black lab coat -
11:27 - 11:29trying to find a cure for the diseases
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11:29 - 11:32that are gonna make us
all extinct for real one day. -
11:32 - 11:33And somewhere there's a man,
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11:33 - 11:35a man in a janitor's uniform,
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11:35 - 11:37stumbling home drunk and dizzy
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11:37 - 11:41after spending half his paycheck
on 40-ounce bottles of twist-off beer, -
11:41 - 11:44and the other half on a four-hour visit
to some lady's house -
11:44 - 11:46on a street where the lights
have all been shot out -
11:46 - 11:49by people who'd rather do
what they do in this city in the dark. -
11:49 - 11:51And half a block away from janitor man,
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11:51 - 11:54there's a group of good-for-nothings
who don't know no better, -
11:54 - 11:56waiting for janitor man
with rusted bicycle chains -
11:57 - 11:58and imitation Louisville Sluggers,
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11:58 - 12:00and if they don't find a cent on him,
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12:00 - 12:01which they won't,
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12:01 - 12:05they'll just pound at him till the muscles
in their arms start burning, -
12:05 - 12:07till there's no more teeth to crack out.
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12:07 - 12:08But they don't count on me.
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12:09 - 12:11They don't count on no Dark Knight,
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12:11 - 12:14with a stomach full of grocery-store
brand macaroni and cheese -
12:14 - 12:16and cut-up Vienna sausages.
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12:16 - 12:17(Laughter)
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12:17 - 12:19'Cause they'd rather believe
I don't exist. -
12:20 - 12:24And from 87 stories up, I can hear
one of the good-for-nothings say, -
12:24 - 12:26"Gimme the cash!" -- real fast like that,
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12:26 - 12:28just, "Gimme me the fuckin' cash!"
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12:28 - 12:31And I see janitor man mumble something
in drunk language and turn pale, -
12:31 - 12:32and from 87 stories up,
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12:32 - 12:36I can hear his stomach trying
to hurl its way out his Dickies. -
12:36 - 12:37So I swoop down, like, mad-fast
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12:37 - 12:40and I'm like darkness, I'm like, "Swoosh!"
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12:40 - 12:43And I throw a batarang
at the one naked lightbulb. -
12:43 - 12:44(Cymbal)
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12:44 - 12:46And they're all like, "Whoa, muthafucker!
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12:46 - 12:48Who just turned out the lights?"
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12:48 - 12:49(Laughter)
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12:49 - 12:50"What's that over there?"
"What?" -
12:51 - 12:52"Gimme me what you got, old man!"
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12:52 - 12:53"Did anybody hear that?"
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12:53 - 12:57"Hear what? There ain't nothing.
No, really -- there ain't no bat!" -
12:57 - 12:58But then ...
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12:58 - 13:02one out of the three good-for-nothings
gets it to the head -- pow! -
13:02 - 13:05And number two swings blindly
into the dark cape before him, -
13:05 - 13:07but before his fist hits anything,
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13:07 - 13:09I grab a trash can lid and --
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13:09 - 13:10right in the gut!
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13:10 - 13:12And number one comes
back with the jump kick, -
13:12 - 13:15but I know judo karate, too,
so I'm like -- -
13:15 - 13:18(Drums)
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13:18 - 13:20Twice!
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13:20 - 13:21(Drums)
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13:21 - 13:22(Laughter)
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13:22 - 13:23(Drums)
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13:23 - 13:25But before I can do any more damage,
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13:25 - 13:27suddenly we all hear a "click-click."
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13:28 - 13:30And suddenly everything gets quiet.
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13:31 - 13:33And the one good-for-nothing left standing
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13:33 - 13:35grips a handgun and aims it straight up,
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13:35 - 13:37like he's holding Jesus hostage,
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13:37 - 13:40like he's threatening maybe
to blow a hole in the moon. -
13:40 - 13:42And the good-for-nothing
who got it to the head, -
13:42 - 13:43who tried to jump-kick me,
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13:43 - 13:46and the other good-for-nothing
who got it in the gut, -
13:46 - 13:49is both scrambling back away
from the dark figure before 'em. -
13:49 - 13:50And the drunk man, the janitor man,
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13:50 - 13:53is huddled in a corner,
praying to Saint Anthony -
13:53 - 13:55'cause that's the only one
he could remember. -
13:55 - 13:56(Double beat)
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13:56 - 13:57And there's me:
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13:57 - 13:59eyes glowing white,
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13:59 - 14:01cape blowing softly in the wind.
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14:01 - 14:02(Beat)
-
14:02 - 14:03Bulletproof chest heaving,
-
14:03 - 14:06my heart beating right through it
in a Morse code for: -
14:06 - 14:07"Fuck with me
-
14:07 - 14:08just once
-
14:08 - 14:09come on
-
14:09 - 14:11just try."
-
14:11 - 14:13And the one good-for-nothing
left standing, -
14:13 - 14:14the one with the handgun --
-
14:14 - 14:15yeah, he laughs.
-
14:15 - 14:17And he lowers his arm.
-
14:17 - 14:18And he points it at me
-
14:18 - 14:19and gives the moon a break.
-
14:19 - 14:22And he aims it right
between my pointy ears, -
14:22 - 14:25like goal posts and he's special teams.
-
14:25 - 14:28And janitor man is still
calling Saint Anthony, -
14:28 - 14:29but he ain't pickin' up.
-
14:30 - 14:32And for a second,
-
14:32 - 14:33it seems like ...
-
14:35 - 14:37maybe I'm gonna lose.
-
14:39 - 14:40Nah!
-
14:40 - 14:41(Drums)
-
14:41 - 14:42Shoot! Shoot! Fwa-ka-ka!
-
14:42 - 14:43"Don't kill me, man!"
-
14:44 - 14:45Snap! Wrist crack! Neck! Slash!
-
14:45 - 14:49Skin meets acid:
"Ahhhhhhh!" -
14:49 - 14:51And he's on the floor
-
14:51 - 14:52and I'm standing over him
-
14:52 - 14:54and I got the gun in my hands now
-
14:54 - 14:57and I hate guns, I hate holding 'em
'cause I'm Batman. -
14:57 - 14:58And, asterisk:
-
14:58 - 15:01Batman don't like guns 'cause his parents
got iced by guns a long time ago. -
15:01 - 15:03But for just a second,
-
15:03 - 15:04my eyes glow white,
-
15:04 - 15:05and I hold this thing
-
15:05 - 15:07for I could speak to the good-for-nothing
-
15:07 - 15:09in a language he maybe understands.
-
15:09 - 15:10Click-click!
-
15:10 - 15:12(Beat)
-
15:12 - 15:14And the good-for-nothings
become good-for-disappearing -
15:14 - 15:18into whatever toxic waste, chemical
sludge shithole they crawled out of. -
15:19 - 15:21And it's just me and janitor man.
-
15:22 - 15:23And I pick him up,
-
15:23 - 15:26and I wipe sweat and cheap perfume
off his forehead. -
15:26 - 15:28And he begs me not to hurt him
-
15:28 - 15:30and I grab him tight
by his janitor-man shirt collar, -
15:30 - 15:32and I pull him to my face
-
15:32 - 15:34and he's taller than me
but the cape helps, -
15:34 - 15:36so he listens when I look him
straight in the eyes. -
15:36 - 15:38And I say two words to him:
-
15:38 - 15:40"Go home."
-
15:41 - 15:43And he does,
-
15:43 - 15:45checking behind his shoulder
every 10 feet. -
15:45 - 15:48And I swoosh from building
to building on his way there -
15:48 - 15:49'cause I know where he lives.
-
15:49 - 15:52And I watch his hands tremble
as he pulls out his key chain -
15:52 - 15:54and opens the door to his building.
-
15:54 - 15:55And I'm back in bed
-
15:55 - 15:57before he even walks in
through the front door. -
15:58 - 15:59And I hear him turn on the faucet
-
15:59 - 16:01and pour himself a glass
of warm tap water. -
16:02 - 16:04And he puts the glass back in the sink.
-
16:04 - 16:06And I hear his footsteps.
-
16:07 - 16:09And they get slower
as they get to my room. -
16:10 - 16:13And he creaks my door open,
like, mad-slow. -
16:14 - 16:16And he takes a step in,
-
16:16 - 16:17which he never does.
-
16:18 - 16:19(Beat)
-
16:19 - 16:21And he's staring off into nowhere,
-
16:21 - 16:23his face, the color
of sidewalks in summer. -
16:24 - 16:25And I act like I'm just waking up
-
16:25 - 16:28and I say, "Ah, what's up, Pop?"
-
16:28 - 16:31And janitor man says nothing to me.
-
16:32 - 16:33But I see in the dark,
-
16:33 - 16:34I see his arms go limp
-
16:34 - 16:36and his head turns back, like, towards me.
-
16:36 - 16:39And he lifts it for I can see his face,
-
16:39 - 16:41for I could see his eyes.
-
16:41 - 16:43And his cheeks is drippin',
but not with sweat. -
16:44 - 16:45And he just stands there breathing,
-
16:46 - 16:48like he remembers my eyes glowing white,
-
16:48 - 16:51like he remembers my bulletproof chest,
-
16:52 - 16:53like he remembers he's my pop.
-
16:58 - 17:01And for a long time I don't say nothin'.
-
17:03 - 17:05And he turns around, hand on the doorknob.
-
17:05 - 17:06And he ain't looking my way,
-
17:06 - 17:09but I hear him mumble two words to me:
-
17:10 - 17:12"I'm sorry."
-
17:14 - 17:18And I lean over, and I open
my window just a crack. -
17:19 - 17:20If you look up high enough,
-
17:21 - 17:23you could see me.
-
17:24 - 17:25And from where I am --
-
17:26 - 17:27(Cymbals)
-
17:28 - 17:29I could hear everything.
-
17:32 - 17:40(Applause)
-
17:41 - 17:42Thank you.
-
17:42 - 17:49(Applause)
- Title:
- My journey from Marine to actor
- Speaker:
- Adam Driver
- Description:
-
Before he fought in the galactic battles of Star Wars, Adam Driver was a United States Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company. He tells the story of how and why he became a Marine, the complex transition from soldier to civilian -- and Arts in the Armed Forces, his nonprofit that brings theater to the military. Because, as he says: "Self-expression is just as valuable a tool as a rifle on your shoulder." Followed by a spirited performance of Marco Ramirez's "I am not Batman" by Jesse J. Perez and Matt Johnson. (Adult language)
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDTalks
- Duration:
- 18:02
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene edited English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor | ||
Brian Greene approved English subtitles for My journey from Marine to actor |