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In terms of just my personal relationship
with sex - I don't have one
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I really don't want one
and I'm good with that.
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People say:
'Oh, you just haven't had sex with me.'
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That's correct, I haven't had sex with you
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don't really want to,
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but thanks for the offer.
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It's almost like I told them I don't eat or something.
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Being ace is kind of like finding
everebody else sees a colour you don't
-
it's kind of hard to believe
that it's real.
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Do you need to have sex to reproduce
or are you like an ameba?
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Took me a long time
to realize that I was asexual.
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Mostly because I didn't know it existed.
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It was around Christmas,
when I was 20 years old,
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That I was like:
'I'm pretty sure that this might be me.'
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Took me a long time
to come to terms with that.
-
'Cause a lot of times
people try to tell you:
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'You're not asexual.'
-
'That's such an extreme,
why would you jump to that?'
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'Maybe you have a low sex drive
or maybe you haven't met the right person.'
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I would define asexuality as,
first and foremost,
-
a lack of sexual attraction
-
but it can be accompanied
by a lack of sexual desire
-
or a lack of partnered sex.
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I never have any desire
to engage sexually with anyone.
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I can look at someone
and be aesthetically attracted to them
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so, see that they would be attractive
to other people
-
but that doesn't have
any sexual connotation for me.
-
There's sort of a spectrum
is not a simple spectrum,
-
but people are -
you can be asexual or in the grey zone
-
so some people in the grey zone would
experience maybe some sexual attraction,
-
rarely on or under some circumstances.
-
I had always had crushes on people
and I didn't realize the distinction
-
between romantic attraction
and sexual attraction at that point.
-
You should know the difference between
someone's sexuality and their romance
-
because a lot of asexuals
aren't also aromantic.
-
Some people experience
romantic attraction-
-
lot people experience romantic attraction
to people of various genders
-
That's not specific to asexual people,
-
so your sexual orientation
and your romantic orientation
-
don't necessarily have to match up.
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But it is only in the asexual community
that we have the language for that.
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Is it a new thing? When did this pop up?
When did you decide that you are asexual?
-
Kinsey was one of the first
to really talk about asexuals
-
although he didn't use that word per se.
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He didn't know how to categorise people
who didn't belong
-
to his fairly neat seven point scale,
where people are attracted to the same sex
-
and then you have this continuum
'attracted to the opposite sex.'
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So he couldn't actually give these people,
these asexual people, a number.
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So he actually called them 'X-es.'
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And I was doing some analysis
of small probablity samples of Britain.
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One of the questions asked
'are you attracted to men',
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'are you attracted to women',
'are you attracted to both,'
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and they gave another option,
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and the other option was
'I'm not attracted to anyone at all.'
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It just clicked in me that it was the missing
fourth category of sexual orientation
-
that really hadn't been studied before
in any extensive way.
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About 1% of that particular sample
reported having no sexual attraction
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to other people.
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Ever.
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So that the sort of working figure.
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Anthony Bogaert was really the pioneer
as far as the academic studies of asexuality goes.
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The asexual movement
really does need the credibility
-
that comes with academic research.
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It's a very new community as a community.
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It didn't exist as a community
until the Internet.
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Now, the Asexual Visibility and
Education Network (AVEN)
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which is the most well-known asexual
community online, massive forum, message ?
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It is most people's first point of contact
in the English speaking world about asexuality.
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That was founded in 2001 and that's
when the things generally took off.
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they don't like boys, they don't like girls,
no attraction to anybody?
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That exists?
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I didn't know asexuality was a thing
for the majority of my life.
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I stumbled across asexuality around
when I was about 14 or 15.
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I didn't know the term 'asexuality'
until I was 16.
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I first saw the word 'asexual' on tumblr.
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It didn't really click
that I could be asexual.
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I was just like: 'Oh, all have sex,
because I guess it feels good
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and that's what people
expect people to do.'
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I already had quite a few
sexual experiences
-
and I thought that maybe
I'm just not doing it correctly
-
or for whatever reason
I'm doing something wrong.
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I remember thinking:
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'I have to meet the right person
and then something will happen.'
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But nothing ever did.
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I wondered if something was off
about the way I perceived sexuality.
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I was about 20 years old.
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I didn't realize
that the rest of the world wasn't asexual.
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I didn't realize that some people
literalily experienced sexual attraction,
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that this was more than just a metaphor.
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I found the definition on AVEN
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and it basically just fit
and perfectly described me
-
so I've indentified with that ever since.
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Because at the time I joined AVEN
-
there wasn't high quality
youtube educational content
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I thought that there was a void there
so I wanted to fill that
-
and so I started 'Everything is A-okay'
and run that for about 4 months.
-
I saw that big list of LGBT resources,
one of which was asexual resources
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And I clicked on a link and it was
wiki article on a romantic attratction
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And that was actually kind of my click moment
and I was really excited
-
and I remember telling my sister that day:
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'Oh, I'm gonna come out to you,
this is so exciting.'
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My parents were initially
accepting of asexuality
-
after I went over for two hours
what it actually was
-
because they never heard of that before.
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Up until I was 19 we all just thought
I was just the straight girl of the family.
-
and suddenly it was 'oh, nevermind'
-
I realised that I'm not,
sorry it took me so long.
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Is asexuality actually a choice
-
or is it something that is beyond our control,
-
sort of chemical imbalance?
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Celibacy is a choice,
something people actively pursue,
-
whether that's for religius reasons
or for personal reasons.
-
Asexuality on the other hand
is not a choice.
-
There is an oppression around it.
-
There's also a lot of misinformation
or lack of knowledge.
-
The primary challenges
that the asexual community faces
-
are invisibility and erasure.
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People say 'Wait,
does that mean you never had sex?'
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I get a lot of invasive questions.
-
'Are you sure that you're not just gay?'
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'Wait, I thought you're asexual,
why are you dating somebody?'
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'Does that mean you're not human?'
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'Is it a phase?'
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'How do you know
if you are not diagnosed?'
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'Do you masturbate?'
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They ask if I'd been abused as a child.
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'Does that mean you have no emotions?'
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'Does that mean you can't love people?'
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'Do you wanna have sex with me
just to try it?'
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I don't think many of us really register
that these questions are inappropriate.
-
I think there is a kind of suspicion
that to some degree
-
everybody is a sexual person,
-
and therefore, you know what,
-
just grow up already
and accept your sexuality.
-
Our is probably the only group
at the Pride Parade
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being told by others in the Pride Parade
to go get out sexual orientations cured.
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I've had a lot of offers for sex.
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'Oh, well, you probably just
haven't had the right person,
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I bet I can change your identity
if we just sleep together.'
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Sometimes those offers
can be really aggressive and rude
-
and sometimes (point) a sexual harrasement,
-
sometimes rape jokes.
-
People are like:
-
'How are you oppressed?'
-
'It's not like anyone is forcing you
to have sex.'
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But the world kind of does.
-
There's so much pressure and there's so much compulsive sexuality everywhere.
-
Even if you are in a really
homophobic community
-
you probably know that gay exists.
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But that's not the case for asexualilty.
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So the people grow up feeling alone, feeling broken.
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It's difficult for people who are asexual,
in high school for example,
-
and have never heard of asexuality
so they feel like they don't belong.
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One of my biggest frustrations
-
about dealing with people
who don't know or understand asexuality
-
is the idea that asexual people face no challenges,
-
that the world is all carefree
-
and you must have so much more time and energy
-
if you are not distracted by sexuality,
-
completely not acknowledging
any of the unique challenges
-
or struggles that we face as asexual people.
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There are lots of types of intimacy without penetration.
-
There are lot of different ways of doing intimacy
-
and I do have intense relationships,
intimate relationships.
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Right now
I have one significant person in my life
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and this is definitely an intimate relationship.
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It's not a romantic relationship
-
but it is in the category
we talk about queerplatonic relationships,
-
so those are relationships that are not romantic,
but they are also not,
-
they are not adequately
or properly described by friendship.
-
To an outsider
it probably looks like I just have a lot of friends
-
but they are more than friends.
-
They fill a larger spot in my life
than just a friend would.
-
I definitely spend a lot of time
and emotional energy
-
on having romantic attractions to people.
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My lover wanting to actually be
in a romantic relationship
-
is different question.
-
I know that I do experience romantic attraction
-
but I'm not sure towards who yet
-
and that's something
I haven't quite figured out.
-
I have been involved with girls,
I have been involved with boys,
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I have been involved with genderqueer people.
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If we can find that asexual people
are not necessarily aromantic
-
it ends up suggesting that in sexual people
-
those processes of love and attachement to other people
-
can be also seperable or decouplebe?
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And if you think about it that's true.
-
I mean, even movies talk about certain themes.
-
I went to see this movie about bromance, right?
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And therefore this guys might be
very sexually oriented towards the opposite sex
-
and yet have this romantic inclination
to the same sex.
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I think it's easier for us to love,
-
for those asexuals who are not aromantic.
-
it's easier for people to not confuse
your emotions for your desires,
-
maybe it's just me but I emotionally relate
to people very quickly.
-
All of my important relationships
have been friendships, and the truth is
-
I have alwyas functioned better
in groups than I have in one-on-one pairs,
-
even if it comes to just my friends.
-
so for me centering my life around
one partner I think would be limiting
-
and I think it would lead to me
feeling insecure a lot of the time
-
or feeling like I didn't have enough,
I guess.
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I like big groups
-
so that's why polirelationships
are something that interests me
-
even though they are not something
I've actually really pursued.
-
I see multiple people at once,
I don't necesarily sleep with all them.
-
I don't know if all of them necessarily
consider themsleves seeing me in return
-
but to me I am romantically involved with
them, I get romantic needs met from them,
-
we spend time together, we cuddle together
and I can get that from multiple people,
-
because I don't need
that sexual exculsiveness.
-
Within an intimate setting
I personally would prefer monogamy.
-
I would be fine with having sex
and compromising on that standpoint
-
just because I'm not sex averse.
-
But I do realise it's not for all asexuals.
-
Everyone has sex, everyone loves sex,
sex is sex, right?
-
I'm one of these asexual people who-
I have had sex.
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I've had partner where I had really hard time
negotiating the sex in the relationship,
-
and for me, one thing
that I tend to say to people
-
when I'm trying to describe my identity -
sex is not the object.
-
Sex is the means to the end for me.
-
I do it a lot of the time because I feel
an emotional connection with the person
-
and I really want them to feel it back.
-
And I realise that a lot of time people
get that through having sex, so I am like:
-
'Okay, well then, you know I care about you
and this makes you feel closer to me
-
so let's do it.'
-
But I've also got a lot of really
important relatioships in my life
-
that had nothing to do with sex.
-
I think the fact that I can separate
sex from that
-
make my relationships
a lot more interesting.
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I am not willing to compromise on it,
-
and the truth is that I think a lot of the people
-
who are willing to compromise on it-
-
I don't want to sound, I don't know,
-
I guess - condescending,
-
but I worry about the level of consent
that's actually happening in those relationships.
-
We still have our sex organs,
women still have their clitorises.
-
I can still be stimulated,
they can still orgasm,
-
but they just don't desire it.
-
But it doesn't mean that it's bad
when it happens.
-
So it's like trying to explain that,
-
the difference between the physicallness of it
-
and the mentality behind it, the separation.
-
Having sex to please the partner.
-
having sex because you think
you owe that to a partner.
-
having sex because it just doesn't occurr to you
-
that maybe you can say 'no',
-
maybe you don't have to,
-
because that is what people do
in relationships.
-
Having sex, because you think
-
that your partner might leave you
if you don't.
-
And then it gets mixed up in a context
of compulsory sexuality,
-
where people are supposed to have sex,
-
where people are conditioned
from very, very young,
-
that this is what you're supposed to do.
-
I don't think we're ever going to get to a point
-
where compulsory sexuality is entirely removed,
-
especially because of the media
and the oversexualization of all marketing.
-
If you take a kind of a sexual view on our culture
-
you may go: 'Whoa, this culture
is so infused with very strange sexual elements.'
-
And ultimately just how saturated
our culture is with sex.
-
So we end up seeing sex to some degree
for what it is in terms of it being
-
yes, this passionate, very enjoyable activity
that many people are really, really interested in,
-
but it also is a bit mad, is a bit strange,
-
and we end up seeing from
an asexual person's perspective
-
just how mad it truly is to some degree,
even if the sexual people suffer from it gladly.
-
Challenging compulsory sexuality is
somehting that benefits everyone
-
and I think that plenty of people that don't identify
on the ace spectrum
-
would benefit from knowing that sex is not
an necessary requirement in a romantic relationships,
-
from having a better understanding,
your right to say 'no'
-
and I think being able to define your feelings
in that way can really be freeing
-
in terms of how you see
your relationships and how you see your life.
-
Are you happy?
-
And that'a all that matters.
-
I think as far as sexuality goes
we're really ona tipping point
-
as far as overall asexual awareness goes.
-
Just as the trans community
had their big break,
-
I guess, just within the last year
we have Laverne Cox on TV now
-
and we have all of these different
issues related to trans people
-
finally having some visibility
within generall society.
-
I think asexuality is falling
very closely behind
-
and we're no very far from having
the same kind of widespread visibility.
-
People need to agree and to get behind
the idea that we are the vast? community
-
and that some people experience
certain things and some people don't
-
and all of these people need to be
included under the umbrella of asexuality
-
when we talk about it.
-
What I personally would love to see eventually
is for us to be talking to mental health pracitioners
-
and to be talking to other health practitioners,
-
because that's one of the major areas
where people need to know about this
-
because a lot of aces have experiences
of being invalidated
-
in therapy setting and health care settings.
-
in therapy setting and health care settings.
-
Beacuse asexual people -
we're out there, we exist
-
and we're not gonna get this knowledge
and information, we're not gonna find each other,
-
we're not gonna come to understand
ourselves unless the tools are out there.
-
The idea that sex is not only natural
and normal and important for everyone
-
and a part of humanity connected with intimacy
and something you must participate in.
-
Having this conversation and unpacking that,
-
challenging that, is something that
can be beneficial I think to everybody.
-
Just by studying asexuality
we understand sexuality better.
-
I think if people wanna have sex, they should have sex,
-
they gonna have sex with whoever they want
-
but also don't make people feel broken
because they don't want to have sex.
-
And I think that if I can get anything accross
that's what I wanna get accross,
-
because I talk with other asexuals
and that is like one of the biggest things,
-
it's that before we can figure out who we are
or that we have a community we feel broken,
-
'cause society tells us
we're supposed to feel this way and we don't
-
and it's almost like there's something missing
-
and we're doing something wrong
and it's really isolating and painful.
-
If someone is not distressed
by their lack of sexuality
-
and their lack of sexual inclinations
to the others
-
and they're comfortable with themselves,
then I don't construe it as a problem.
-
I'm fine with my own asexuality
-
and if there were a cure
I don't think I'd want to pursue that
-
just because the asexuality
isn't something to be fixed.
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We're sexy and we know it!