What I learned as a kid in jail

We need to change the culture
in our jails and prisons,

especially for young inmates.

New York State is one
of only two in the U.S.

that automatically arrests
and tries 16- to 17-year old as adults.

This culture of violence
takes these young people

and puts them in a hostile environment,

and the correctional officers pretty much
allow anything and everything to go on.

There's not really much
for these young people to do

to actually enhance their talent
and actually rehabilitate them.

Until we can raise the age
of criminal responsibility to 18,

we need to focus on changing
the daily lives of these young people.

I know firsthand.

Before I ever turned 18,

I spent approximately
400 days on Rikers Island,

and to add to that

I spent almost 300 days
in solitary confinement,

and let me tell you this:

screaming at the top of your lungs
all day on your cell door

or screaming at the top
of your lungs out the window,

it gets tiring.

Since there's not much for you to do
while you're in there,

you start pacing
back and forth in your cell,

you start talking to yourself,

your thoughts start running wild,

and then your thoughts
become your own worst enemy.

Jails are actually supposed
to rehabilitate a person,

not cause him or her
to become more angry,

frustrated, and feel more hopeless.

Since there's not a discharge plan
put in place for these young people,

they pretty much
reenter society with nothing.

And there's not really much for them to do
to keep them from recidivating.

But it all starts with the COs.

It's very easy for some people

to look at these correctional officers
as the good guys

and the inmates as the bad guys,

or vice versa for some,

but it's a little more than that.

See, these COs are normal,
everyday people.

They come from the same neighborhoods
as the population they serve.

They're just normal people.

They're not robots, and there's
nothing special about them.

They do pretty much everything
anybody else in society does.

The male COs want to talk
and flirt with the female COs.

They play the little high school
kid games with each other.

They politic with each other.

And the female COs gossip to each other.

So I spent numerous amounts of time
with numerous amounts of COs,

and let me tell you about
this one in particular named Monroe.

One day he pulled me
in between the A and B doors

which separates the north
and south side of our housing unit.

He pulled me there because I had
a physical altercation

with another young man in my housing unit,

and he felt, since there was
a female officer working on the floor,

that I violated his shift.

So he punched me in my chest.

He kind of knocked the wind out of me.

I wasn't impulsive.
I didn't react right away,

because I know this is their house,

I have no wins.

All he has to do is pull his pin
and backup will come immediately.

So I just gave him a look in his eyes

and I guess he saw that anger
and frustration just burning,

and he said to me,

"Your eyes is going to get you
in a lot of trouble,

because you're looking
like you want to fight."

So he commenced
to taking off his utility belt,

he took off his shirt and his badge,

and he said, "We could fight."

So I asked him, "You gonna hold it down?"

Now, that's a term that's commonly used
on Rikers Island meaning that you're not

going to say anything to anybody,
and you're not going to report it.

He said, "Yeah, I'm gonna hold it down.
You gonna hold it down?"

I didn't even respond.

I just punched him right in his face,

and we began fighting
right then and there.

Towards the end of the fight,
he slammed me up against the wall,

so while we were tussled up,
he said to me, "You good?"

as if he got the best of me,

but in my mind, I know
I got the best of him,

so I replied very cocky,

"Oh, I'm good, you good?"

He said, "Yeah, I'm good,
I'm good."

We let go, he shook my hand,
said he gained me my respect,

gave me a cigarette and sent me on my way.

Believe it or not, you come across
some COs on Rikers Island

that'll fight you one on one.

They feel that they understand how it is,

and they feel that I'm going
to meet you where you're at.

Since this is how you commonly
handle your disputes,

we can handle it in that manner.

I walk away from it like a man,
you walk away from it like a man,

and that's it.

Some COs feel that they jelling with you.

This is why they have that mentality
and that attitude

and they go by that concept.

In some instances, we're in it
together with the COs.

However, institutions need to give
these correctional officers

proper trainings on how to properly deal
with the adolescent population,

and they also need to give them
proper training on how to deal

with the mental health population as well.

These COs play a big factor
in these young peoples' lives

for x amount of time until a disposition
is reached on their case.

So why not try to mentor
these young people while they're there?

Why not try to give them some type
of insight to make a change,

so once they reenter back into society,

they're doing something positive?

A second big thing
to help our teens in jails

is better programming.

When I was on Rikers Island,
the huge thing was solitary confinement.

Solitary confinement
was originally designed

to break a person mentally,
physically, and emotionally.

That's what it was designed for.

The U.S. Attorney General
recently released a report

stating that they're going
to ban solitary confinement

in New York State for teens.

One thing that kept me sane while I
was in solitary confinement was reading.

I tried to education myself
as much as possible.

I read any and everything
I could get my hands on.

And aside from that,
I wrote music and short stories.

Some programs that I feel
would benefit our young people

are art therapy programs

for the kids that like to draw
and have that talent,

and what about the young individuals
that are musically inclined?

How about a music program for them
that actually teaches them

how to write and make music?

Just a thought.

When adolescents come to Rikers Island,

C74 RNDC is the building
that they're housed in.

That's nicknamed "gladiator school,"

because you'll have a young individual
coming in from the street

thinking that they're tough,

being surrounded by a bunch
of other young individuals

from all of the five boroughs,
and everybody feels that they're tough.

So now you have a bunch of young gentlemen
poking their chests out

feeling that I have to prove
I'm equally as tough as you

or I'm tougher than you, you, and you.

But let's be honest:

that culture is very dangerous
and damaging to our young people.

We need to help institutions
and these teens realize

that they don't have to lead
the previous lifestyle that they led

when they were on the street,
that they can actually make a change.

It's sad to report
that while I was in prison,

I used to hear dudes

talking about when they
get released from prison,

what type of crimes
they're going to commit

when they get back in the street.

The conversations used to sound
something like this:

"Oh, when I hit the street,
my brother got this connection

for this guy on the third,

or my man over here
got this connection for the low price.

Let's exchange information,
and when we hit the town,

we're going to do it real big."

I used to hear these conversations
and think to myself, "Wow,

these dudes are really talking about
going back in the street

and committing future crimes."

So I came up with a name for that:

I called it a go-back-to-jail quick scheme

because really, how long
is that going to last?

You get a retirement plan with that?

Nice little pension? 401k? 403b?

You get health insurance? Dental?

(Laughter)

But I will tell you this:

being in jail and being in prison,

I came across some of the most
intelligent, brilliant,

and talented people
that I would ever meet.

I've seen individuals
take a potato chip bag

and turn it into the most
beautiful picture frame.

I've seen individuals take
the state soap that's provided for free

and turn them into
the most beautiful sculptures

that would make Michelangelo
look like a kindergartner.

At the age of 21, I was in
a maximum security prison

called Elmira Correctional Facility.

I just came out the weight shack
from working out,

and I saw an older gentleman that I knew
standing in the middle of the yard

just looking up at the sky.

Mind you, this older gentlemen

was serving a 33 and a third
to life sentence

in which he already had served
20 years of that sentence.

So I walk up to him and I said,

"Old G, what's going on, man, you good?"

He looked at me, and he said,
"Yeah, I'm good, young blood."

I'm like, "So what you looking
up at the sky for, man?

What's so fascinating up there?"

He said, "You look up
and you tell me what you see."

"Clouds." (Laughter)

He said, "All right.
What else you see?"

At that time, it was plane passing by.

I said, "All right, I see an airplane."

He said, "Exactly,
and what's on that airplane? People.

Exactly. Now where's that plane
and those people going?"

"I don't know. You know?

Please let me know if you do.
Let me get some lottery numbers."

He said, "You missing
the big picture, young blood.

That plane with those people
is going somewhere,

while we're here stuck.

The big picture is this:

that plane with those people
going somewhere?

That's life passing us by

while we behind these walls, stuck."

Ever since that day,

that sparked something in my mind
and made me know I had to make a change.

Growing up, I was always
a good, smart kid.

Some people would say
I was a little too smart for my own good.

I had dreams of becoming
an architect or an archaeologist.

Currently, I'm working
at the Fortune Society

which is a reentry program,
and I work with people

as a case manager
that are at high risk for recidivism.

So I connect them
with the services that they need

once they're released from jail and prison

so they can make a positive transition
back into society.

If I was to see my 15-year old self today,

I would sit down and talk to him
and try to educate him

and I would let him know,
"Listen, this is me. I'm you.

This is us. We are one.

Everything you are about to do,
I know what you're gonna do

before you do it because I already did it,

and I would encourage him

not to hang out with x, y, and z people.

I would tell him not to be
in such-and-such place.

I would tell him,
keep your behind in school, man,

because that's where you need to be

because that's what's going
to get you somewhere in life.

This is the message
that we should be sharing

with our young men and young women.

We shouldn't be treating them as adults
and putting them in cultures of violence

that are nearly impossible
for them to escape.

Thank you.

(Applause)