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I'll talk to you later.
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(thinking) Carley...
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Carley...
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Keep it together.
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You can do this.
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Stay with me, Carley.
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Carley...(sobbing)
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(sniffling)
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After Us
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Carley...
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Carley, are you there?
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You're here now.
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There's no avoiding it.
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Where...?
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The first step, reminiscing and retracting.
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I don't want to get up.
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That's fine. You can lay here all day.
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You can cry all night.
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You're allowed to do all the things you promised
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yourself you'd never do,
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like listen to an old voice message to hear his voice.
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(ex-boyfriend) I'm sorry I missed your call.
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I'm in the subway right now, but I'll call you back later, okay?
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Or wish he'd message you, just so you'd know he was thinking of you too.
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But at the same time, wish he wouldn't because it would
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only make you miss him more.
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And you know you shouldn't, but you'd text him...
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Maybe even call him.
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You fight it, but you lose.
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You watch those sappy rom-coms.
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It's cliche, but go ahead. Eat from the carton.
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(sniffling) I miss everything about him.
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What do you miss?
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How sturdy he felt when I hugged him tight.
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The way he would rest his chin on top of my head.
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How reassuring his hand felt as he carried me through a crowd.
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That look in his eye when he accidentally ate the last cookie.
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Sweaty kisses after he worked out, which made me cringe at the time,
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but now it just makes me smile.
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I miss it all.
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That's okay.
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You're allowed to. You're supposed to.
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It's okay to look like crap and not care.
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Who're you trying to impress, anyway?
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You see him?
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Everywhere.
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It's okay to purposely avoid all those places and things.
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You just want to be alone.
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Your friends insist on taking you out, but all you want is...
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To shut off all the lights...
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curl up in bed and cry some more.
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Your friends try to help by saying...
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You can do so much better.
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I didn't like him anyways.
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I don't want to hear any of that.
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It doesn't help at all.
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I just...want him back in my life.
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Or do you just miss the thought of him?
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You miss the routine, the comfort, the body?
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That's all, right?
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No.
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At this point, you just miss him.
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And that's okay.
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Carley?
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Carley, are you there?
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Yeah.
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Do you want to get up?
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Actually, I do.
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(heavy sigh) How long was I there?
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It doesn't matter.
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All that matters is that you're ready.
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For the next step...
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Release.
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I'm hungry.
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I think you can put some effort into looking sort of decent.
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What does that entail?
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Brushing your hair?
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Maybe a little eye shadow?
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Some blush?
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Yeah, no.
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You're right. No blush yet.
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Call up one or two of your closest friends to catch up.
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You're ready to talk a little bit about your ex,
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but this time with a clear head.
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You might see cute guys with your eyes,
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but nothing stirs inside your heart.
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No butterflies, no sparks, no interest...
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Because I still miss him.
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You will for a while.
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But at least the urges to contact him or check up become less frequent.
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You just have to learn to suppress those urges now.
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How long will I be here?
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As long as you need to be.
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You're up early!
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- I'm ready!
- The next step...rebuilding.
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One day becomes two.
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Two becomes a week.
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Weeks become months and soon you're ready to prove
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to yourself that you can live on.
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You actually want to go out,
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socialize, meet new people.
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You talk, laugh, flirt.
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Yes, even flirt, or whatever you call what you just did.
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I'm a little rusty.
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It's okay. It's been a while.
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As long as you're smiling again.
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You start doing things towards a better version of you.
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Trying a fruit cleanse,
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finally taking that trip to Europe,
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trying Yoga for the first time,
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cutting your hair--oh, okay. Nothing too crazy!
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Running a marathon,
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checking out a museum,
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cleaning out your old clothes.
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You start to see life without him.
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Carley...?
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It was the first time he came over.
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I cooked spaghetti and he got a stain on it.
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I put it in the wash right away.
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We ended up talking for hours, and then he forgot it here.
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You've made so much progress, Carley. Please...
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I kept it in my closet as a reminder of that night.
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That was almost four years ago.
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I thought he was the one.
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We both did.
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Yeah, it did feel special.
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It was.
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It always will be.
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Sometimes, no matter how hard you try,
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something can always hold you back from moving on.
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A lingering memory,
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a false hope,
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and you fall back a few steps.
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But if you can be strong,
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you'll finally make it out.
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Renewed,
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the world is brighter, happier, lighter.
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That huge weight of pain and fear has been lifted,
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and all you feel is excitement.
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Excitement for what's to come.
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Excitement for the possibilities.
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At this point, it's not even about finding another person to love.
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It's about finding who you are as a person, as a human.
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It's only when you don't have to consider anyone else
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that you can focus completely on your life,
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and creating the best possible version of yourself.
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But there's no harm in smiling back at that cute guy in the coffee shop.
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Even the strong cave when no one's looking
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We try not to be scared of the outside
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But I know that there's strenght from the fall
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It's not weak to be weak at all
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Behind these eyes, the world is hiding...
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After Us
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