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Looks aren't everything. Believe me, I'm a model.

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    Hi. My name is Cameron Russell,
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    and for the last little while
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    I've been a model.
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    Actually, for 10 years.
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    And I feel like there's an uncomfortable tension
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    in the room right now
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    because I should not have worn this dress. (Laughter)
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    So luckily I brought an outfit change.
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    This is the first outfit change on the TED stage,
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    so you guys are pretty lucky to witness it, I think.
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    If some of the women were really horrified when I came out,
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    you don't have to tell me now, but I'll find out later on Twitter.
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    (Laughter)
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    I'd also note that I'm quite privileged
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    to be able to transform what you think of me
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    in a very brief 10 seconds.
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    Not everybody gets to do that.
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    These heels are very uncomfortable,
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    so good thing I wasn't going to wear them.
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    The worst part is putting this sweater over my head,
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    because that's when you'll all laugh at me,
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    so don't do anything while it's over my head.
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    All right.
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    So why did I do that?
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    That was awkward.
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    Well,
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    hopefully not as awkward as that picture.
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    Image is powerful,
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    but also image is superficial.
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    I just totally transformed what you thought of me in six seconds.
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    And in this picture,
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    I had actually never had a boyfriend in real life.
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    I was totally uncomfortable, and the photographer
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    was telling me to arch my back and put my hand
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    in that guy's hair.
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    And of course, barring surgery,
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    or the fake tan that I got two days ago for work,
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    there's very little that we can do to transform how we look,
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    and how we look, though it is superficial and immutable,
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    has a huge impact on our lives.
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    So today, for me, being fearless means being honest.
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    And I am on this stage because I am a model.
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    I am on this stage because I am a pretty, white woman,
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    and in my industry we call that a sexy girl.
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    And I'm going to answer the questions that people always ask me,
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    but with an honest twist.
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    So the first question is, how do you become a model?
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    And I always just say, "Oh, I was scouted," but that means nothing.
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    The real way that I became a model is
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    I won a genetic lottery, and I am the recipient of a legacy,
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    and maybe you're wondering what is a legacy.
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    Well, for the past few centuries
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    we have defined beauty not just as health and youth
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    and symmetry that we're biologically programmed to admire,
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    but also as tall, slender figures,
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    and femininity and white skin.
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    And this is a legacy that was built for me,
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    and it's a legacy that I've been cashing out on.
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    And I know there are people in the audience
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    who are skeptical at this point,
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    and maybe there are some fashionistas who are, like,
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    "Wait. Naomi. Tyra. Joan Smalls. Liu Wen."
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    And first, I commend you on your model knowledge. Very impressive.
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    (Laughter)
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    But unfortunately I have to inform you that in 2007,
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    a very inspired NYU Ph.D. student counted
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    all the models on the runway, every single one that was hired,
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    and of the 677 models that were hired,
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    only 27, or less than four percent, were non-white.
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    The next question people always ask me is,
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    "Can I be a model when I grow up?"
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    And the first answer is, "I don't know, they don't put me in charge of that."
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    But the second answer, and what I really want to say to these little girls is, "Why?
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    You know? You can be anything.
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    You could be the President of the United States,
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    or the inventor of the next Internet,
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    or a ninja cardio-thoracic surgeon poet,
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    which would be awesome, because you'd be the first one."
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    (Laughter)
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    If, after this amazing list, they still are like,
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    "No, no, Cameron, I want to be a model,"
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    well then I say, "Be my boss."
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    Because I'm not in charge of anything,
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    and you could be the editor in chief of American Vogue
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    or the CEO of H&M, or the next Steven Meisel.
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    Saying that you want to be a model when you grow up
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    is akin to saying that you want to win the Powerball when you grow up.
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    It's out of your control, and it's awesome,
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    and it's not a career path.
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    I will demonstrate for you now 10 years of accumulated model knowledge,
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    because unlike cardio-thoracic surgeons,
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    it can just be distilled right into -- right now.
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    So if the photographer is right there
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    and the light is right there, like a nice HMI,
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    and the client says, "Cameron, we want a walking shot,"
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    well then this leg goes first, nice and long, this arm goes back, this arm goes forward,
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    the head is at three quarters, and you just go back and forth,
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    just do that, and then you look back at your imaginary friends,
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    300, 400, 500 times. (Laughter)
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    It will look something like this. (Laughter)
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    Hopefully less awkward than that one in the middle.
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    That was, I don't know what happened there.
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    Unfortunately after you've gone to school,
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    and you have a résumé and you've done a few jobs,
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    you can't say anything anymore,
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    so if you say you want to be the President of the United States,
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    but your résumé reads, "Underwear Model: 10 years,"
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    people give you a funny look.
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    The next question people always ask me is, "Do they retouch all the photos?"
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    And yeah, they pretty much retouch all the photos,
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    but that is only a small component of what's happening.
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    This picture is the very first picture that I ever took,
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    and it's also the very first time that I had worn a bikini,
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    and I didn't even have my period yet.
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    I know we're getting personal, but
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    I was a young girl.
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    This is what I looked like with my grandma just a few months earlier.
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    Here's me on the same day as this shoot.
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    My friend got to come with me.
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    Here's me at a slumber party a few days before I shot French Vogue.
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    Here's me on the soccer team and in V Magazine.
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    And here's me today.
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    And I hope what you're seeing is that
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    these pictures are not pictures of me.
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    They are constructions,
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    and they are constructions by a group of professionals,
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    by hairstylists and makeup artists and photographers and stylists
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    and all of their assistants and pre-production and post-production,
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    and they build this. That's not me.
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    Okay, so the next question people always ask me is,
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    "Do you get free stuff?"
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    I do have too many 8-inch heels which I never get to wear,
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    except for earlier,
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    but the free stuff that I get
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    is the free stuff that I get in real life, and that's what we don't like to talk about.
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    I grew up in Cambridge,
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    and one time I went into a store and I forgot my money
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    and they gave me the dress for free.
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    When I was a teenager, I was driving with my friend
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    who was an awful driver and she ran a red and of course,
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    we got pulled over,
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    and all it took was a "Sorry, officer,"
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    and we were on our way.
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    And I got these free things because of how I look,
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    not who I am, and there are people paying a cost
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    for how they look and not who they are.
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    I live in New York, and last year,
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    of the 140,000 teenagers that were stopped and frisked,
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    86 percent of them were black and Latino,
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    and most of them were young men.
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    And there are only 177,000 young black and Latino men in New York,
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    so for them, it's not a question of, "Will I get stopped?"
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    but "How many times will I get stopped? When will I get stopped?"
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    When I was researching this talk,
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    I found out that of the 13-year-old girls in the United States,
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    53 percent don't like their bodies,
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    and that number goes to 78 percent by the time that they're 17.
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    So the last question people ask me is,
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    "What is it like to be a model?"
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    And I think the answer that they're looking for is,
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    "If you are a little bit skinnier and you have shinier hair,
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    you will be so happy and fabulous."
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    And when we're backstage, we give an answer
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    that maybe makes it seem like that.
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    We say, "It's really amazing to travel,
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    and it's amazing to get to work with creative, inspired, passionate people."
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    And those things are true, but they're only one half of the story,
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    because the thing that we never say on camera,
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    that I have never said on camera,
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    is, "I am insecure."
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    And I'm insecure because I have to think about
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    what I look like every day.
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    And if you ever are wondering,
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    "If I have thinner thighs and shinier hair, will I be happier?"
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    you just need to meet a group of models,
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    because they have the thinnest thighs and the shiniest hair and the coolest clothes,
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    and they're the most physically insecure women probably on the planet.
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    So when I was writing this talk, I found it very difficult
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    to strike an honest balance, because on the one hand,
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    I felt very uncomfortable to come out here and say,
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    "Look I've received all these benefits from a deck stacked in my favor,"
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    and it also felt really uncomfortable to follow that up with,
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    "and it doesn't always make me happy."
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    But mostly it was difficult to unpack a legacy
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    of gender and racial oppression
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    when I am one of the biggest beneficiaries.
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    But I'm also happy and honored to be up here
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    and I think that it's great that I got to come
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    before 10 or 20 or 30 years had passed and I'd had more agency in my career,
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    because maybe then I wouldn't tell the story of how I got my first job,
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    or maybe I wouldn't tell the story of how I paid for college,
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    which seems so important right now.
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    If there's a takeaway to this talk, I hope it's that
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    we all feel more comfortable acknowledging
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    the power of image in our perceived successes
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    and our perceived failures.
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    Thank you. (Applause)
Title:
Looks aren't everything. Believe me, I'm a model.
Speaker:
Cameron Russell
Description:

Cameron Russell admits she won “a genetic lottery”: she's tall, pretty and an underwear model. But don't judge her by her looks. In this fearless talk, she takes a wry look at the industry that had her looking highly seductive at barely 16-years-old. (Filmed at TEDxMidAtlantic.)

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Video Language:
English
Team:
closed TED
Project:
TEDTalks
Duration:
09:37

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