Crossing borders: Christopher Howe at TEDxBeloHorizonte
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0:01 - 0:05(Portuguese): The enchanting and
hospitable capital of Minas Gerais. -
0:19 - 0:21Hello.
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0:21 - 0:25So, the first thing that
I wanted to say is -
0:25 - 0:29as I am speaking about my story
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0:29 - 0:30you really want to be listening
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0:30 - 0:33not for the story of Christopher Howe.
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0:33 - 0:36Because my story isn't unique to me.
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0:36 - 0:38It's the story of many people,
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0:38 - 0:42the people that I've encountered
along my travels, along my journeys -
0:42 - 0:45but it's a universal story.
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0:45 - 0:46It' s a story about all of us.
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0:46 - 0:49It' s a story about what's possible
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0:49 - 0:53for all of us when we're willing
to take a great risk, -
0:53 - 0:57when we're willing to step outside
of our comfort zone, -
0:57 - 1:00outside of what we already know
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1:00 - 1:05into what is unknown, into a place
that might not be safe -
1:06 - 1:10for the benefit of other people.
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1:10 - 1:14So this is the story of my life
for the past few years. -
1:14 - 1:17I'll begin because like
somebody said earlier -
1:17 - 1:20these stories of our lives don't really
have a beginning or an end -
1:20 - 1:22but we need some place to start.
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1:22 - 1:27So, I'll start when I was living
in Germany back in 2004 -
1:27 - 1:33and I had a great life, I was
a high school teacher, in Germany, -
1:33 - 1:36and at the same time
there were certain things -
1:36 - 1:38going on in my life that were not so good.
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1:38 - 1:41I was in the middle of a divorce,
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1:41 - 1:44I had two children that I loved dearly.
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1:44 - 1:49But I was in a depressed place.
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1:49 - 1:53And I had recently graduated
from university, -
1:53 - 1:55I have a degree in History
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1:55 - 1:57and another degree in Biology.
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1:57 - 2:01And I was depressed in a way because
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2:03 - 2:08during school I realized
that things like the Bible -
2:08 - 2:13and the sacred texts were written by man
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2:14 - 2:18and I thought that somehow God
wasn't involved in the process. -
2:21 - 2:24And I became disillusioned with religion
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2:24 - 2:27with spirituality for a few years.
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2:27 - 2:30Until I found it again when
I was living in Germany, -
2:30 - 2:34a friend introduced me to
a book by Paulo Coelho, -
2:34 - 2:37who many of you know,
who wrote the book "The Alchemist". -
2:37 - 2:39And this book reminded me
of something inside of myself, -
2:39 - 2:42something that I had forgotten,
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2:42 - 2:45something that was part of who I am,
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2:45 - 2:49about being on the spiritual path.
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2:50 - 2:53So, I remembered my deep love
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2:53 - 2:56when I was in college
for the country of Ethiopia. -
2:56 - 2:58And how much I wanted to go there
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2:58 - 3:00since I was seventeen years old.
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3:00 - 3:02And after reading the "The Alchemist",
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3:02 - 3:06I decided to buy a plane ticket to Ethiopia.
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3:06 - 3:07Although it's too expensive.
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3:07 - 3:11I didn't have enough money to get there
so I flew instead to Kenya. -
3:12 - 3:15And on my way to Ethiopia
through Kenya, -
3:15 - 3:19I met two film producers
on a very remote island -
3:19 - 3:22near the coast of Somalia.
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3:23 - 3:25And these film producers,
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3:25 - 3:29they're special film producers indeed,
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3:29 - 3:33they produced the movies
"American Psycho" and "Virgin Suicides", -
3:34 - 3:37I don't know if you guys have seen
these movies here. -
3:38 - 3:41But they took me into their house.
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3:41 - 3:45And I started working for them
as a writer -
3:46 - 3:50developing the script for
a Paulo Coelho adaptation -
3:50 - 3:53called "Veronica Decides to Die".
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3:53 - 3:57So it's very interesting, one of the first
lessons that I've learned -
3:57 - 4:00was when we take these
great leaps of faith -
4:00 - 4:04to go on our journeys to go
towards our destiny, -
4:04 - 4:07how all the right people arrive
just at the right times -
4:07 - 4:09when we need them.
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4:09 - 4:12So I met these people
right in this moment -
4:12 - 4:16and I lived with them for about
two months in Africa -
4:16 - 4:18and they went back
to Los Angeles -
4:18 - 4:21and I continued on my way
to Ethiopia where I didn't -
4:21 - 4:24necessarily find what it was
that I was looking for. -
4:24 - 4:26I've gone into this great journey
to this other country -
4:26 - 4:30to go some place else,
and I didn't find it. -
4:30 - 4:34I'm not quite sure what it was
that I was looking for in that moment -
4:34 - 4:36but it wasn't there.
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4:36 - 4:38So I ended up back in Germany
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4:38 - 4:40and my friends from Kenya,
the film producers, -
4:40 - 4:43called me and asked me to come
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4:43 - 4:46finishing developing
the script for them -
4:46 - 4:48in Los Angeles,
"Veronica Decides to Die". -
4:48 - 4:52So I flew out to Los Angeles
and we finished the script -
4:52 - 4:54they went back to Africa and I stayed
for four months -
4:54 - 4:58in a beautiful home,
right on the Venice Beach, -
4:59 - 5:02in a house designed by Frank Gehry,
it was beautiful. -
5:03 - 5:07They came back and their manager quit,
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5:07 - 5:09and I stepped right into his position
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5:09 - 5:11and I started managing film companies,
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5:11 - 5:14something that I'd never done before,
I had no idea how to do. -
5:14 - 5:16And I've much respect
for all the people producing -
5:16 - 5:20this event because I know
what goes into it. -
5:22 - 5:25They put me into a very nice house
in the Los Angeles hills -
5:28 - 5:30and where I lived for the next year.
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5:30 - 5:33My children came to live with me as well
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5:35 - 5:39and at some point during that time
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5:39 - 5:43I had my children go back
to live with their mom. -
5:43 - 5:46They were very young and I thought
they needed to be with her. -
5:46 - 5:49So they went to live with their mother
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5:49 - 5:54and about a month later I was in the
mountains above Los Angeles -
5:54 - 5:56when a very strange thing happened.
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5:56 - 6:00I was in the middle of a ceremony,
and as part of the ceremony -
6:00 - 6:02there's a point for meditation.
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6:02 - 6:06It was very zen like in this
meditation where -
6:06 - 6:09you clear the mind of all your thoughts.
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6:11 - 6:13And the best way to do that
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6:13 - 6:17is by just allowing whatever
is there to be. -
6:18 - 6:20And not to add meaning
to the thoughts that come -
6:20 - 6:22into your mind, alright?
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6:22 - 6:25To get to this place of silence
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6:25 - 6:29and of simple being and presence.
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6:29 - 6:32And as I was there inside of the ceremony,
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6:32 - 6:34in the middle of this meditation,
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6:34 - 6:37I went into a visionary state.
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6:37 - 6:40This might sound crazy,
it sounds crazy to me. -
6:40 - 6:43But the case was I went into
this visionary state -
6:43 - 6:48where I saw myself walking
from Los Angeles, -
6:48 - 6:52first through the deserts
of Northern Mexico, -
6:52 - 6:54just walking by myself.
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6:54 - 6:59Simply with time alone
and with time with God. -
7:01 - 7:04In the next scene I saw
myself walking through -
7:04 - 7:08the mountains of the
Sierra Madre in Mexico, -
7:08 - 7:11being helped by people along the way.
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7:11 - 7:13And I realized as I was walking that I was
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7:13 - 7:16in the middle of this vision
and that I shouldn't -
7:16 - 7:18be having it, that I should
somehow stop it, -
7:18 - 7:20it was crazy, it was nuts
there was no way -
7:20 - 7:22I was going to be walking through Mexico.
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7:22 - 7:25So I stopped it and I returned
back to the place -
7:25 - 7:29where I was and I went back
into my meditation -
7:29 - 7:31and as soon as I did that
I was transported -
7:31 - 7:34back into this vision where again
I was walking -
7:34 - 7:36through the mountains of Mexico,
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7:36 - 7:39through Guatemala,
through the forest of Panama, -
7:39 - 7:43through Colombia, Ecuador,
through Peru ending up -
7:43 - 7:48eventually in this place in the middle
of the Amazon forest. -
7:48 - 7:50And as I going through
this journey in my vision, -
7:50 - 7:52I kept cutting it off.
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7:52 - 7:54Saying: "No, this is crazy,
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7:54 - 7:57I'm not going to do this,
this is nuts", right? -
7:57 - 8:00Then I decided at some point
that I was going to -
8:00 - 8:04just allow this vision to be,
just allow it to have that. -
8:04 - 8:05Before I came into the ceremony,
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8:05 - 8:11I prayed, I was looking for something
to set me back on my spiritual path. -
8:12 - 8:16And I asked God just to be of service.
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8:16 - 8:20And I realized during this vision,
that this vision was the answer -
8:20 - 8:22to my prayer to be of service.
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8:22 - 8:24I wasn't quite sure how yet.
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8:27 - 8:30I took it on that this was something
that was actually possible, right? -
8:31 - 8:34And this is something that you guys
want to hear, right? -
8:34 - 8:37When we have an idea for a project,
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8:37 - 8:41when we have an idea for a place
in our communities, -
8:41 - 8:43in our lives when
we can make a difference, -
8:43 - 8:45oftentimes, the first thing
that comes to us -
8:45 - 8:48are the borders, the blocks, the barriers,
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8:48 - 8:50"Oh, I can't do that, that's not me.
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8:50 - 8:51Maybe I'm not a scientist,
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8:51 - 8:55or maybe I'm not a film maker,
maybe I'm not this or that". -
8:55 - 8:58We put all these borders
and limitations on what it is -
8:58 - 9:01that we can do, none of them
are true, ok? -
9:01 - 9:05Who you are is that anything is
possible in your life -
9:05 - 9:07and you can make a big difference.
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9:07 - 9:11Just one person, especially
when it's in contribution -
9:11 - 9:13to the world around you and
that's the metaphor -
9:13 - 9:16for what it was that I was about to do.
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9:16 - 9:18So the first step after taking it on,
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9:18 - 9:20and saying that this
is indeed possible, -
9:20 - 9:22and ok I'll look at this,
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9:22 - 9:25is that I had to tell people about it.
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9:25 - 9:29I had to make a verbal declaration
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9:29 - 9:31that I was walking to Brazil.
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9:31 - 9:36So I had to tell my bosses,
I had to tell my mom, -
9:36 - 9:39I had to tell my family
that I'm actually leaving -
9:39 - 9:42this mansion that I lived in Los Angeles
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9:42 - 9:45and I'm going to live
like a vagabond. -
9:45 - 9:48On the road.
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9:48 - 9:50And didn't even know
how I was going to do it. -
9:50 - 9:53I had no plan, no plan, none.
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9:53 - 9:56Just that I was doing it.
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9:56 - 9:58So for the next two weeks
I was very excited, -
9:58 - 10:01telling people about this
new possibility -
10:01 - 10:02that was available for me.
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10:02 - 10:05Something that was so crazy
that I couldn't have sat down and thought: -
10:05 - 10:09"This is what I'm going to do,
this makes a lot of sense", right? -
10:09 - 10:12It made no sense at all and that
was kind of the beauty of it. -
10:12 - 10:14Two weeks later there was
another ceremony -
10:14 - 10:16and I went to the ceremony
praying, asking for guidance -
10:16 - 10:20because I had no idea
what I was doing. -
10:20 - 10:23And again I saw another vision,
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10:23 - 10:26the second of this series,
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10:27 - 10:29where, again this is going to sound crazy,
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10:29 - 10:34but I saw a vision of Mary in the sky
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10:34 - 10:37over the sea of Cortez.
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10:37 - 10:40And she didn't say anything to me.
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10:40 - 10:43But only her hands were like this.
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10:43 - 10:46And I saw myself handing out
blank pieces of paper -
10:46 - 10:49to the people that I met on the road.
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10:49 - 10:53Who wrote down,
whatever they wanted to write. -
10:53 - 10:58They wrote down prayers,
to complete their past. -
10:58 - 11:01It was a perfect moment
with a perfect stranger, -
11:01 - 11:03someone who they didn't know
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11:03 - 11:06and with whom they didn't have to pretend.
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11:06 - 11:09And they could just be
totally honest with. -
11:09 - 11:13And that they can finish the past
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11:13 - 11:16so that they can see into the future
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11:16 - 11:19this expanded horizon where
there were no limits. -
11:19 - 11:23They weren't dragging a limited past
based on what they know. -
11:23 - 11:26Maybe those experiences were good,
maybe they weren't, -
11:26 - 11:29but if we're still just going based
in what it is that we know -
11:29 - 11:33we're just going to keep creating more
of that into the future, -
11:33 - 11:37So if you can clear your past,
even if it's just momentarily, -
11:37 - 11:43and look fresh into the horizon,
without limitations, -
11:43 - 11:46and see what's possible there and again,
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11:46 - 11:51outside of fear or trying to make it,
or just survival. -
11:51 - 11:55You know, survival is a game
that we all loose, right? -
11:56 - 11:59So ultimately, we're all
going to loose it. -
11:59 - 12:02And if you can get over your
fear of death, -
12:03 - 12:05most other things like public speaking
for example, -
12:05 - 12:09that most people are very afraid of,
myself included, -
12:10 - 12:13these are irrational fears
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12:13 - 12:16and it's very easy and very simple
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12:16 - 12:20to take a step out
and just to go through it. -
12:20 - 12:24You know, courage is the
art of having fear -
12:24 - 12:27but doing it anyway, alright?
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12:27 - 12:29So you're going to have all these fears,
all these blocks -
12:29 - 12:32about why you can't do the things
that you want to do -
12:32 - 12:36and do it anyway, be who you are
in contribution to the people -
12:36 - 12:40around you and to your communities.
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12:40 - 12:44So, once I said yes to this project,
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12:44 - 12:48everything started lining up perfectly.
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12:48 - 12:51I thought again that:
"Ok, I can make it -
12:51 - 12:53I'm going to do this on my own."
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12:53 - 12:55But of course that doesn't work.
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12:55 - 12:57And it's no fun to like make it like:
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12:57 - 13:01"I'm going to do this. I'm going to force
my way through the Amazon forest. -
13:01 - 13:03To Brazil."
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13:03 - 13:05That just doesn't happen.
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13:05 - 13:10But naturally, once I declared this,
all the pieces started -
13:10 - 13:13aligning themselves perfectly,
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13:13 - 13:18collaborating towards my reaching my goal
deep in the Amazon. -
13:18 - 13:22So, soon after I met a filmmaker,
his name was Mikki Willis, -
13:22 - 13:27from Elevate Films, who decided to promote
my project through a documentary -
13:28 - 13:30where the plan was we were going to raise
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13:30 - 13:3410 thousand dollars that would
fund my trip. -
13:34 - 13:37It was great, it was a platform
kind of like this. -
13:37 - 13:41And I was able to speak my project
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13:41 - 13:44and the problem was
we only made 800 dollars. -
13:44 - 13:46(Laughter)
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13:46 - 13:49So I didn't know how I was going to do it.
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13:49 - 13:51And yet, I did it anyway.
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13:51 - 13:54So I'm very grateful for Mikki Willis
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13:54 - 13:56and for Elevate Films for giving me
the mouthpiece because this is -
13:56 - 13:58the most important thing.
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13:58 - 14:00You have to share what you're going to do
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14:00 - 14:03and then you have to do it, right?
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14:03 - 14:06So it does no good to have an idea sitting
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14:06 - 14:09up here if you're not sharing it
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14:09 - 14:11which is one of the reasons
why I love TED, -
14:11 - 14:13because we're sharing these ideas.
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14:13 - 14:15But also you have to take a step.
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14:15 - 14:17What is it than you can today
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14:17 - 14:22to turn these dreams,
these visions into reality? -
14:23 - 14:27So I want to really encourage
all of you to be able to do. -
14:27 - 14:31So my project what it symbolized in part
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14:31 - 14:35was the possibility of people getting clear.
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14:35 - 14:39Of people removing
the confines of the past -
14:39 - 14:41and be able to step into a future
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14:41 - 14:43that was limitless and free.
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14:43 - 14:45And to able to see through
this person walking -
14:45 - 14:51this gringo that if he can walk
from Los Angeles to Brazil -
14:51 - 14:54what else is possible for me
in my life? Right? -
14:54 - 14:57Like, anything is possible.
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14:57 - 15:01So of course the journey is fraught,
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15:01 - 15:06is filled with temptations,
with breakdowns, -
15:07 - 15:09anytime we're on the road of life
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15:09 - 15:12for sure we're going to have flat tires,
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15:12 - 15:14the car is going to break down,
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15:14 - 15:16we're going to feel sick.
-
15:16 - 15:18A great mentor of mine
once said, -
15:18 - 15:21and I don't know if the joke
will carry here in Brazil -
15:21 - 15:24but, sometimes, you just don't feel
like doing something, -
15:25 - 15:27you said you were
going to do it, -
15:27 - 15:29but you just don't feel like it right?
-
15:29 - 15:32Well, in California we have a lot
of Mexican food or Tex Mex food. -
15:32 - 15:34And we have this thing
called a burrito. -
15:34 - 15:38Which, sometimes they're
not always so good, right? -
15:38 - 15:39And he said something once,
-
15:39 - 15:43"You know, my feelings can change
with a bad burrito." Right? -
15:44 - 15:48Am I really going to let this stop,
what it is that I'm up to in life, right? -
15:48 - 15:51So when you're feeling scared
or feeling these things, -
15:51 - 15:54continue to be up to it,
no matter what. -
15:54 - 15:55That's the idea, right?
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15:58 - 16:03So, also this is the art of
writing down your prayers. -
16:04 - 16:08Or write whatever it was, even atheists
took advantage of this project -
16:08 - 16:09when we were writing down stuff, right?
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16:09 - 16:13It was a cathartic opportunity for it.
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16:13 - 16:17The idea is that when you give your word
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16:17 - 16:21this is your promise, your promessa, right?
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16:21 - 16:25And the art of catholic pilgrimage.
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16:25 - 16:28You give your word to something
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16:28 - 16:30and then you do it, right?
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16:30 - 16:32But it's not in the realm
of right or wrong, -
16:32 - 16:36or good or bad or evil
or anything like this, ok? -
16:36 - 16:40So Aristotle was the first person
who used the term "Harmatia" -
16:40 - 16:43which is where in the New Testament
we have the idea for sin. -
16:44 - 16:47It's when you have a bow and arrow,
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16:47 - 16:49and you have a target,
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16:49 - 16:51and you shoot the arrow
for this target, right? -
16:51 - 16:54But you miss the mark.
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16:54 - 16:57And there's no morality involved
in this at all, right? -
16:57 - 17:01We had a promise and we didn't
keep our promise. -
17:01 - 17:05We had a promise to our wives,
to our children, to our communities. -
17:05 - 17:08And somewhere along the way
for whatever reasons, -
17:08 - 17:11because the very fact that
we are on the road, -
17:11 - 17:15we had a breakdown and we
did not keep our promise. -
17:15 - 17:18So the idea is, when we break our word,
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17:18 - 17:20when we break our promise,
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17:20 - 17:24to restore our promise,
to restore our word -
17:24 - 17:27literally by speaking it,
or by writing it down, -
17:27 - 17:30so that we can come complete
with the past -
17:30 - 17:33and then make a new promise, right?
-
17:33 - 17:37So there were a few places where
I didn't keep my word in this walk: -
17:37 - 17:40I didn't walk between Panama
and Colombia, for example, -
17:40 - 17:42because the police prevented me
from doing it, ok? -
17:42 - 17:46But there were other places where
there were incredible triumphs. -
17:46 - 17:49Walking for 30 days through the Amazon
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17:49 - 17:53without any maps or compass,
I was lost ten times. -
17:53 - 17:56Just on rivers and just kind of
feeling where I was. -
17:56 - 17:58It was an incredible project.
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17:58 - 18:02So, I would like to bring your attention
to my website: -
18:02 - 18:05iamwalking.org
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18:05 - 18:08Where you can go and actually
write down your own prayers -
18:08 - 18:11to clear your own past in a way
that's totally anonymous and safe -
18:12 - 18:15and also declare
your new possibilities in life. -
18:15 - 18:17Thank you so much for your time.
(Applause)
- Title:
- Crossing borders: Christopher Howe at TEDxBeloHorizonte
- Description:
-
The name "peregrino" in Latin means the one who crosses borders. Christopher Howe left the comfort and security of his Los Angeles life behind to make a pilgrimage on foot to the Amazon. Along the way he discovered that everything in life is within walking distance.
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 18:22
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I broke subtitles that were over 42 characters into two lines. I also fixed some line breaks in some subtitles to make the lines more balanced in length and/or to keep linguistic "wholes" together (e.g. keep the word "that" in the same line as the clause that it introduces as a relative pronoun). To learn more about why and how to break subtitles into lines, see this guide on OTPedia: http://translations.ted.org/wiki/How_to_break_lines
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I fixed the reading speed of the subtitles where it was over 21 characters per second. I did this by either compressing the text (see http://translations.ted.org/wiki/How_to_Compress_Subtitles) or by editing the timing of the subtitle. In some cases, I merged subtitles to create a bigger subtitle with the correct reading speed. In order to merge subtitles, copy the text of the second subtitle, delete the second subtitle, paste its text into the first subtitle and extended its time to cover the duration of the deleted subtitle. To learn more about line length, line breaking and reading speed, watch this tutorial: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yvNQoD32Qqo
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Please note that laughing should be represented as (Laughter) not (Laughs). http://translations.ted.org/wiki/How_to_Tackle_a_Transcript#Common_sound_representation
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