Why I keep speaking up, even when people mock my accent
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0:01 - 0:03I used to have this recurring dream
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0:03 - 0:05where I'd walk into a roomful of people,
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0:06 - 0:09and I'd try not to make
eye contact with anyone. -
0:10 - 0:12Until someone notices me,
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0:12 - 0:13and I just panic.
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0:14 - 0:16And the person walks up to me,
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0:16 - 0:19and says, "Hi, my name is So-and-so.
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0:19 - 0:20And what is your name?"
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0:20 - 0:23And I'm just quiet, unable to respond.
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0:25 - 0:28After some awkward silence, he goes,
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0:28 - 0:29"Have you forgotten your name?"
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0:30 - 0:31And I'm still quiet.
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0:32 - 0:37And then, slowly, all the other people
in the room begin to turn toward me -
0:37 - 0:39and ask, almost in unison,
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0:40 - 0:45(Voice-over, several voices)
"Have you forgotten your name?" -
0:45 - 0:48As the chant gets louder,
I want to respond, but I don't. -
0:50 - 0:52I'm a visual artist.
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0:53 - 0:55Some of my work is humorous,
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0:55 - 0:59and some is a bit funny but in a sad way.
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1:00 - 1:05And one thing that I really enjoy doing
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1:05 - 1:07is making these little animations
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1:07 - 1:11where I get to do the voice-over
for all kinds of characters. -
1:11 - 1:12I've been a bear.
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1:12 - 1:14(Video) Bear (Safwat Saleem's voice): Hi.
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1:14 - 1:16(Laughter)
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1:16 - 1:18Safwat Saleem: I've been a whale.
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1:18 - 1:20(Video) Whale (SS's voice): Hi.
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1:20 - 1:21(Laughter)
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1:21 - 1:22SS: I've been a greeting card.
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1:22 - 1:24(Video) Greeting card (SS's voice): Hi.
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1:24 - 1:25(Laughter)
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1:25 - 1:28SS: And my personal favorite
is Frankenstein's monster. -
1:29 - 1:31(Video) Frankenstein's monster
(SS's voice): (Grunts) -
1:31 - 1:32(Laughter)
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1:32 - 1:34SS: I just had to grunt
a lot for that one. -
1:34 - 1:37A few years ago,
I made this educational video -
1:37 - 1:40about the history of video games.
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1:40 - 1:44And for that one, I got to do
the voice of Space Invader. -
1:44 - 1:46(Video) Space Invader (SS's voice): Hi.
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1:46 - 1:47SS: A dream come true, really,
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1:47 - 1:48(Laughter)
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1:48 - 1:50And when that video was posted online,
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1:50 - 1:53I just sat there on the computer,
hitting "refresh," -
1:53 - 1:55excited to see the response.
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1:55 - 1:57The first comment comes in.
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1:57 - 1:58(Video) Comment: Great job.
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1:58 - 1:59SS: Yes!
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2:00 - 2:01I hit "refresh."
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2:01 - 2:04(Video) Comment: Excellent video.
I look forward to the next one. -
2:04 - 2:07SS: This was just the first
of a two-part video. -
2:07 - 2:09I was going to work
on the second one next. -
2:09 - 2:10I hit "refresh."
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2:10 - 2:14(Video) Comment: Where is part TWO?
WHEREEEEE? I need it NOWWWWW!: P -
2:14 - 2:15(Laughter)
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2:15 - 2:18SS: People other than my mom
were saying nice things about me, -
2:18 - 2:19on the Internet!
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2:19 - 2:22It felt like I had finally arrived.
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2:22 - 2:23I hit "refresh."
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2:23 - 2:26(Video) Comment: His voice
is annoying. No offense. -
2:26 - 2:29SS: OK, no offense taken. Refresh.
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2:29 - 2:32(Video) Comment: Could you remake this
without peanut butter in your mouth? -
2:32 - 2:37SS: OK, at least the feedback
is somewhat constructive. Hit "refresh." -
2:37 - 2:39(Video) Comment: Please don't use
this narrator again -
2:39 - 2:41u can barely understand him.
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2:41 - 2:42SS: Refresh.
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2:42 - 2:45(Video) Comment: Couldn't follow
because of the Indian accent. -
2:45 - 2:46SS: OK, OK, OK, two things.
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2:46 - 2:48Number one, I don't have an Indian accent,
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2:48 - 2:50I have a Pakistani accent, OK?
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2:50 - 2:53And number two, I clearly
have a Pakistani accent. -
2:53 - 2:56(Laughter)
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2:56 - 2:58But comments like that kept coming in,
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2:58 - 3:01so I figured I should just ignore them
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3:01 - 3:04and start working
on the second part of the video. -
3:04 - 3:06I recorded my audio,
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3:06 - 3:09but every time I sat down to edit,
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3:09 - 3:10I just could not do it.
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3:12 - 3:15Every single time, it would take me
back to my childhood, -
3:15 - 3:18when I had a much harder time speaking.
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3:18 - 3:21I've stuttered for as long
as I can remember. -
3:22 - 3:24I was the kid in class
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3:24 - 3:26who would never raise his hand
when he had a question -- -
3:26 - 3:27or knew the answer.
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3:27 - 3:29Every time the phone rang,
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3:29 - 3:32I would run to the bathroom
so I would not have to answer it. -
3:33 - 3:36If it was for me, my parents
would say I'm not around. -
3:36 - 3:38I spent a lot of time in the bathroom.
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3:40 - 3:42And I hated introducing myself,
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3:42 - 3:44especially in groups.
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3:44 - 3:47I'd always stutter on my name,
and there was usually someone who'd go, -
3:47 - 3:49"Have you forgotten your name?"
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3:49 - 3:50And then everybody would laugh.
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3:51 - 3:53That joke never got old.
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3:55 - 3:57(Laughter)
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3:58 - 4:01I spent my childhood
feeling that if I spoke, -
4:01 - 4:07it would become obvious
that there was something wrong with me, -
4:07 - 4:08that I was not normal.
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4:09 - 4:11So I mostly stayed quiet.
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4:12 - 4:16And so you see, eventually for me to even
be able to use my voice in my work -
4:16 - 4:18was a huge step for me.
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4:18 - 4:20Every time I record audio,
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4:20 - 4:23I fumble my way through saying
each sentence many, many times, -
4:23 - 4:25and then I go back in
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4:25 - 4:28and pick the ones
where I think I suck the least. -
4:31 - 4:34(Voice-over) SS: Audio editing
is like Photoshop for your voice. -
4:34 - 4:38I can slow it down, speed it up,
make it deeper, add an echo. -
4:38 - 4:42And if I stutter along the way,
and if I stutter along the way, -
4:42 - 4:43I just go back in and fix it.
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4:43 - 4:45It's magic.
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4:45 - 4:48SS: Using my highly edited
voice in my work -
4:48 - 4:51was a way for me
to finally sound normal to myself. -
4:52 - 4:54But after the comments on the video,
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4:55 - 4:57it no longer made me feel normal.
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4:58 - 5:00And so I stopped
using my voice in my work. -
5:02 - 5:06Since then, I've thought a lot
about what it means to be normal. -
5:07 - 5:09And I've come to understand
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5:09 - 5:13that "normal" has a lot to do
with expectations. -
5:13 - 5:15Let me give you an example.
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5:15 - 5:16I came across this story
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5:16 - 5:18about the Ancient Greek writer, Homer.
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5:19 - 5:22Now, Homer mentions
very few colors in his writing. -
5:23 - 5:24And even when he does,
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5:24 - 5:26he seems to get them quite a bit wrong.
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5:27 - 5:30For example, the sea
is described as wine red, -
5:30 - 5:34people's faces are sometimes green
and sheep are purple. -
5:35 - 5:36But it's not just Homer.
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5:36 - 5:39If you look at all
of the ancient literature -- -
5:39 - 5:41Ancient Chinese, Icelandic, Greek, Indian
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5:41 - 5:43and even the original Hebrew Bible --
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5:43 - 5:46they all mention very few colors.
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5:47 - 5:50And the most popular theory
for why that might be the case -
5:50 - 5:53is that cultures begin
to recognize a color -
5:53 - 5:56only once they have the ability
to make that color. -
5:56 - 5:58So basically, if you can make a color,
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5:58 - 5:59only then can you see it.
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6:00 - 6:03A color like red, which was fairly easy
for many cultures to make -- -
6:03 - 6:06they began to see that color
fairly early on. -
6:06 - 6:09But a color like blue,
which was much harder to make -- -
6:09 - 6:12many cultures didn't begin to learn
how to make that color -
6:12 - 6:13until much later.
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6:13 - 6:16They didn't begin to see it
until much later as well. -
6:16 - 6:19So until then, even though
a color might be all around them, -
6:19 - 6:22they simply did not have
the ability to see it. -
6:22 - 6:23It was invisIble.
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6:23 - 6:25It was not a part of their normal.
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6:27 - 6:29And that story has helped
put my own experience into context. -
6:30 - 6:33So when I first read
the comments on the video, -
6:33 - 6:36my initial reaction was to take it
all very personally. -
6:37 - 6:38But the people commenting did not know
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6:38 - 6:41how self-conscious I am about my voice.
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6:42 - 6:45They were mostly reacting to my accent,
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6:45 - 6:48that it is not normal
for a narrator to have an accent. -
6:49 - 6:51But what is normal, anyway?
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6:51 - 6:55We know that reviewers will find
more spelling errors in your writing -
6:55 - 6:56if they think you're black.
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6:57 - 7:01We know that professors are less likely
to help female or minority students. -
7:02 - 7:05And we know that resumes
with white-sounding names -
7:05 - 7:08get more callbacks than resumes
with black-sounding names. -
7:09 - 7:10Why is that?
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7:11 - 7:13Because of our expectations
of what is normal. -
7:14 - 7:16We think it is normal
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7:16 - 7:18when a black student has spelling errors.
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7:18 - 7:20We think it is normal
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7:20 - 7:23when a female or minority student
does not succeed. -
7:24 - 7:26And we think it is normal
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7:26 - 7:29that a white employee
is a better hire than a black employee. -
7:29 - 7:32But studies also show
that discrimination of this kind, -
7:32 - 7:34in most cases, is simply favoritism,
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7:34 - 7:38and it results more from wanting
to help people that you can relate to -
7:38 - 7:42than the desire to harm people
that you can't relate to. -
7:43 - 7:46And not relating to people
starts at a very early age. -
7:46 - 7:48Let me give you an example.
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7:48 - 7:51One library that keeps track of characters
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7:52 - 7:55in the children's book
collection every year, -
7:55 - 8:00found that in 2014,
only about 11 percent of the books -
8:00 - 8:02had a character of color.
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8:02 - 8:06And just the year before,
that number was about eight percent, -
8:06 - 8:10even though half of American children
today come from a minority background. -
8:10 - 8:11Half.
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8:11 - 8:13So there are two big issues here.
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8:13 - 8:16Number one, children are told
that they can be anything, -
8:16 - 8:17they can do anything,
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8:17 - 8:19and yet, most stories
that children of color consume -
8:19 - 8:21are about people who are not like them.
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8:21 - 8:24Number two is that majority groups
don't get to realize -
8:24 - 8:27the great extent to which
they are similar to minorities -- -
8:27 - 8:30our everyday experiences, our hopes,
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8:30 - 8:32our dreams, our fears
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8:32 - 8:34and our mutual love for hummus.
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8:34 - 8:35It's delicious!
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8:35 - 8:37(Laughter)
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8:38 - 8:41Just like the color blue
for Ancient Greeks, -
8:41 - 8:44minorities are not a part
of what we consider normal, -
8:45 - 8:50because normal is simply a construction
of what we've been exposed to, -
8:50 - 8:52and how visible it is around us.
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8:54 - 8:56And this is where things
get a bit difficult. -
8:57 - 9:01I can accept the preexisting notion
of normal -- that normal is good, -
9:01 - 9:05and anything outside of that very
narrow definition of normal is bad. -
9:06 - 9:10Or I can challenge
that preexisting notion of normal -
9:10 - 9:12with my work
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9:12 - 9:13and with my voice
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9:14 - 9:16and with my accent
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9:17 - 9:18and by standing here onstage,
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9:18 - 9:21even though I'm scared shitless
and would rather be in the bathroom. -
9:22 - 9:23(Laughter)
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9:23 - 9:26(Applause)
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9:33 - 9:36(Video) Sheep (SS's voice):
I'm now slowly starting to use my voice -
9:36 - 9:38in my work again.
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9:38 - 9:39And it feels good.
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9:39 - 9:41It does not mean I won't have a breakdown
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9:41 - 9:43the next time a couple dozen
people say that I talk -
9:43 - 9:46(Mumbling) like I have peanut
butter in my mouth. -
9:46 - 9:47(Laughter)
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9:47 - 9:49SS: It just means I now have
a much better understanding -
9:49 - 9:51of what's at stake,
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9:51 - 9:54and how giving up is not an option.
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9:57 - 9:59The Ancient Greeks didn't just wake up
one day and realize -
9:59 - 10:01that the sky was blue.
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10:01 - 10:05It took centuries, even, for humans
to realize what we had been ignoring -
10:05 - 10:06for so long.
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10:07 - 10:11And so we must continuously challenge
our notion of normal, -
10:11 - 10:15because doing so is going
to allow us as a society -
10:15 - 10:18to finally see the sky for what it is.
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10:20 - 10:26(Video) Characters: Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. -
10:26 - 10:28Frankenstein's monster: (Grunts)
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10:28 - 10:29(Laughter)
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10:29 - 10:30SS: Thank you.
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10:30 - 10:34(Applause)
- Title:
- Why I keep speaking up, even when people mock my accent
- Speaker:
- Safwat Saleem
- Description:
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Artist Safwat Saleem grew up with a stutter — but as an independent animator, he decided to do his own voiceovers to give life to his characters. When YouTube commenters started mocking his Pakistani accent, it crushed him, and his voice began to leave his work. Hear how this TED Fellow reclaimed his voice and confidence in this charming, thoughtful talk.
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDTalks
- Duration:
- 10:48
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