A letter to Pope Francis | Farian Sabahi | TEDMilano
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0:20 - 0:24Your Holiness,
I started writing two years ago, -
0:24 - 0:27one morning in late springtime
in a village in the Langhe district -
0:27 - 0:30with cobblestone streets
that spiral up to the square. -
0:30 - 0:33There's a castle and
an old church in the square, -
0:33 - 0:35like those you find all over Piedmont.
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0:35 - 0:38From that square, the valley
opens up to a breath-taking view. -
0:38 - 0:42At the end, hills covered
with woods, chestnut and hazel trees. -
0:42 - 0:46Below are vineyards and cornfields.
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0:46 - 0:49The beauty of the Langhe!
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0:49 - 0:51There, the extraordinary
beauty of the landscape -
0:51 - 0:55coexists with the horror
of certain families. -
0:55 - 0:59Like mine, a middle class one,
among the indifference of many. -
1:01 - 1:03Your Holiness, my name
is Ginevra and I’m forty. -
1:03 - 1:07I’m from Turin, where I grew up
and went to high school. -
1:07 - 1:10And later on, I met the man
I eventually married. -
1:10 - 1:12It was autumn.
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1:12 - 1:14He was from the Langhe district, Cuneo.
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1:14 - 1:16A slender young man who was so polite.
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1:16 - 1:20He had just enrolled to study medicine
in Turin, Corso Massimo D’Azeglio. -
1:21 - 1:24That day, the fog along the Po river
rose up to the park. -
1:24 - 1:28The atmosphere was chilling,
we looked at each other and were happy, -
1:28 - 1:31It was a dream that stayed in our blood.
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1:32 - 1:34He got his degree, became a specialist.
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1:34 - 1:36got married and celebrated
a lavish wedding. -
1:37 - 1:39I moved to his town.
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1:40 - 1:43Then came our first son, Matteo:
a gift from God. -
1:43 - 1:45Then the twins Pietro and Luca.
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1:45 - 1:48Pietro – Peter – is the rock
on which Jesus founded his church. -
1:48 - 1:51Luca is light, the Virgin’s favourite;
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1:52 - 1:54St Luke is the patron of physicians.
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1:54 - 1:58Francesca, green eyes and blonde curls,
has a kind of shy look. -
1:58 - 2:00She resembles me.
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2:00 - 2:02My children are beautiful!
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2:02 - 2:04They have the healthy complexion
of countryside people. -
2:04 - 2:08At the foot of the Langhe,
at the confluence of two rivers, -
2:08 - 2:10300 metres above sea level.
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2:10 - 2:14It was once a stopping place
for wayfarers and pilgrims -
2:14 - 2:18on the old road linking Albenga to Alba.
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2:18 - 2:21We live on a big farm,
and during the day -
2:21 - 2:24the children run barefoot
on the lawn and jump for joy; -
2:24 - 2:26at night the crickets sing.
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2:26 - 2:28Andrea is the heir of a wealthy family:
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2:28 - 2:32they own a building in town
and a beautiful home in Sanremo. -
2:32 - 2:36His family is well known in our town.
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2:36 - 2:38They generously donate to the Church
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2:38 - 2:40and on Sunday
he always goes to the service, -
2:40 - 2:44sitting in the first row,
with his family’s name on the pew. -
2:44 - 2:48As a young man,
he took time off to travel. -
2:48 - 2:50But instead of marrying a local girl,
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2:50 - 2:53one accustomed to country life,
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2:53 - 2:55he chose me.
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2:55 - 2:58Turinese, and a “foreigner” in Cuneo.
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2:58 - 3:02A slim blonde girl like others
he met around the world. -
3:04 - 3:08Unfortunately, our fairy tale ends here:
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3:08 - 3:10my husband doesn't have
the virtues of King Arthur. -
3:10 - 3:13When he got back
to his hometown, he changed. -
3:14 - 3:16It is probably due to the
chauvinistic farming culture. -
3:16 - 3:18Maybe his friends at the café,
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3:18 - 3:22for whom women don’t count
and are meant to serve them. -
3:23 - 3:24Fact is, Andrea got violent.
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3:24 - 3:28He's been beating me for 12 years,
and now he also beats our children. -
3:29 - 3:32And no Lancelot comes along to save us.
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3:32 - 3:37We're not living in some poor suburb.
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3:37 - 3:39Quite the opposite:
Andrea heads his hospital department. -
3:39 - 3:41He has a good salary.
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3:41 - 3:44He only allows me a few euros at a time,
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3:44 - 3:47and in the evening he checks back
the receipts from the grocery store; -
3:47 - 3:49he pays the butcher
at the end of the month. -
3:49 - 3:52But all in all, money isn't a problem.
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3:54 - 3:56The other night Andrea started kicking me,
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3:56 - 3:59but I was so tired I couldn’t
stand the pain and screamed. -
3:59 - 4:02My daughter suddenly woke up
and crept onto the stairs, -
4:02 - 4:05and she saw me on the floor
as her father hit me. -
4:05 - 4:07The next day,
she burst out crying at school. -
4:07 - 4:10The teacher hugged her
and she told her the whole story. -
4:10 - 4:13She was astonished:
she has known Andrea all her life. -
4:13 - 4:16She would have never thought
he was a violent man. -
4:16 - 4:18But children don’t lie.
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4:19 - 4:22Her teacher called me in
and said she would talk to him. -
4:22 - 4:24I begged her not to.
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4:24 - 4:27That would put me and my daughter
at risk of being killed. -
4:28 - 4:31As for now, I don’t feel like rebelling.
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4:31 - 4:33I can’t leave this beautiful house
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4:33 - 4:36to move into a tiny apartment
with my four children. -
4:37 - 4:40Plus, my husband is Catholic
and doesn’t want a separation. -
4:40 - 4:42My parents are also practising Catholics.
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4:43 - 4:46They live in the city
and I don’t see them often. -
4:46 - 4:48My mother has sensed
that something is wrong, -
4:48 - 4:50but I don’t want to load her
with my problems. -
4:50 - 4:55I already know she wouldn’t be happy
with a divorced daughter. -
4:55 - 4:57I do not want to leave Andrea, actually.
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4:57 - 4:59I don’t want to go to the police,
as my only friend told me, -
4:59 - 5:02a high school classmate
I sometimes meet. -
5:02 - 5:04It would be like betraying him.
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5:05 - 5:08Maybe I’m doing something wrong:
it all seems so strange to me. -
5:08 - 5:11When I met Andrea,
he was kind - he still is. -
5:11 - 5:14He beats me, then he hugs me
and says he loves me. -
5:14 - 5:16It happens all the time.
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5:16 - 5:18If I’m bleeding,
he naturally takes care of it. -
5:18 - 5:21No ER, of course:
everyone knows him there. -
5:23 - 5:28Families often become a place
of peaceful cruelty, instead of love. -
5:29 - 5:33The other day I got home
and his mother was there. -
5:33 - 5:36In her youth, she beated
her husband and children. -
5:36 - 5:40At home, she doesn’t speak
in Italian, just dialect. -
5:40 - 5:43In that rough language, a few nights ago
she egged Andrea on to beat me. -
5:44 - 5:47Then she was the very one who cast me off.
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5:47 - 5:49My children looked on us, astonished.
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5:50 - 5:54Maybe that's because people and cattle
are all the same thing here. -
5:54 - 5:57I’m from Turin and I come
from a respectable middle-class family. -
5:57 - 6:00She would have preferred a local girl,
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6:00 - 6:02one of those who stay at home
and don’t say a word. -
6:05 - 6:06On Sunday I went to confess.
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6:06 - 6:09Father Paolo said, I need
to be patient, to put up with this. -
6:09 - 6:12Jesus says that the people
who face the greatest suffering -
6:12 - 6:14are God’s chosen ones.
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6:14 - 6:16I must not complain.
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6:16 - 6:19Family is sacred and cannot be torn apart.
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6:19 - 6:24Of course, it’s hard to stay together
without mutual respect. -
6:24 - 6:26But that’s not just about respect.
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6:26 - 6:29There is violence,
and violence kills love. -
6:29 - 6:32After beating me,
Andrea confesses his sins, -
6:32 - 6:35and the priest forgives him.
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6:35 - 6:37Then it happens again, he beats me again,
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6:37 - 6:40and Father Paolo
forgives him yet again. -
6:40 - 6:42He is a country priest,
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6:42 - 6:45and my mother-in-law
brings him chickens and rabbits. -
6:45 - 6:47Things of the past.
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6:47 - 6:49Andrea means man.
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6:49 - 6:52Your Holiness, during the service
that started your papacy, -
6:52 - 6:57you said that every man must be
the keeper of himself and others. -
6:57 - 6:59Andrea was watching the service on TV.
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6:59 - 7:01Then it took some pretext
for him to beat me again, -
7:01 - 7:02in front of the children.
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7:02 - 7:06It has become routine, even for me.
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7:06 - 7:09I stay silent as I stare
at my man, distraught. -
7:09 - 7:12I raised four children,
but time didn't pass for women, here: -
7:12 - 7:15they bear children and have no voice.
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7:16 - 7:17I am covered in bruises
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7:17 - 7:20and I hide my scarred cheekbone
with a bit of makeup. -
7:20 - 7:23I have to do something
for them, for my children. -
7:23 - 7:25The oldest has started
hitting other people. -
7:25 - 7:29Your Holiness, I heard you on the radio,
speaking about the first believers. -
7:29 - 7:31I would like to ask for your help.
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7:31 - 7:34Maybe all it takes is a word of yours
to end all this violence. -
7:34 - 7:38I’ve heard it called
“violence disguised as love”. -
7:38 - 7:39But maybe it would have no effect.
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7:39 - 7:43What can you say
that hasn’t been said already? -
7:43 - 7:45Unless you, Your Holiness,
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7:45 - 7:48decide to talk
to priests like Father Paolo. -
7:48 - 7:53To not grant forgiveness
to men like my husband. -
7:53 - 7:57The Church should only offer forgiveness
when there's honest repentance. -
7:58 - 8:03Because formal repentance
allows people to access to the sacraments, -
8:03 - 8:05and then return to the usual violence.
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8:05 - 8:09One must show repentance,
try to mend oneself. -
8:09 - 8:12Before a fake contrition,
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8:12 - 8:15a priest cannot – and must not –
absolve that person. -
8:19 - 8:22[Two years later, April 18th 2015]
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8:22 - 8:24Your Holiness,
I wrote you two years ago, -
8:24 - 8:27but you had just become Pope
and it was the wrong time. -
8:27 - 8:29You already know me, I'm Ginevra,
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8:29 - 8:33I'm from Piedmont like your grandfather
Giovanni and his father Francesco. -
8:33 - 8:35I live in Turin: beautiful and ancient,
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8:35 - 8:38and when the evening becomes a star
there is a huge crowd of people! -
8:38 - 8:40Turin is like Naples
that goes to the mountains. -
8:40 - 8:44Turin, with its straight roads,
is the flip side of Rome. -
8:44 - 8:48Turin, a city suffering
from melancholy, as Venditti sang. -
8:49 - 8:51We live in a condominium on Corso Francia,
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8:51 - 8:54a straight road that goes
from Piazza Statuto, Porta Susa, -
8:54 - 8:56and leads to Chambéry in France.
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8:56 - 9:01It was built by the Savoy ruler
Victor Amadeus II in 1711 -
9:01 - 9:05and connected the Royal Palace
to the residence in Rivoli. -
9:05 - 9:08During the Second World War,
-
9:08 - 9:10when Italy went to war against France,
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9:10 - 9:14the city authorities changed its name
to Corso Gabriele d’Annunzio. -
9:14 - 9:17After the war, it got
called back Corso Francia. -
9:17 - 9:21The underground runs along here
every day, with nine stops! -
9:21 - 9:23At the beginning of Corso Francia
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9:23 - 9:26there are lots of lovely
Art Nouveau residences -
9:26 - 9:27built in early 20th century.
-
9:28 - 9:31We live further down, towards Rivoli,
on the outskirts of Turin. -
9:32 - 9:37Office workers live in my building
and they leave early to rush to work. -
9:37 - 9:40Where I’m living is not my house.
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9:40 - 9:43It’s where I grew up, my parents’ house.
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9:43 - 9:47They are elderly and left me
their furnished apartment, -
9:47 - 9:49and then moved to the countryside.
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9:51 - 9:54Now I’d like to tell you
how I worked up the courage -
9:54 - 9:56to go to the police and sue Andrea.
-
9:56 - 9:58I didn’t want to at the time.
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9:58 - 10:00Francesca was in fourth grade
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10:00 - 10:02when her father kicked me on the rug.
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10:02 - 10:04The next morning
she told her teacher about it. -
10:04 - 10:08Concerned that the teacher would
go talk to Andrea about it -
10:08 - 10:12It didn’t look good for my daughter
to go around and say what happened. -
10:12 - 10:13I begged her not to say anything,
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10:13 - 10:16as he would have beaten
both me and my daughter. -
10:16 - 10:21I had taken this tough decision
for Francesca, now a sixth grader. -
10:23 - 10:26After talking to the teacher,
I went to the police -
10:26 - 10:28and to the emergency room,
where they reported my bruises. -
10:28 - 10:32It wasn’t even the worst
beating I went through! -
10:32 - 10:34But it was enough to press charges.
-
10:34 - 10:37A few weeks later
I went to a law firm in Turin. -
10:37 - 10:39I worked with one lawyer
for the criminal case -
10:39 - 10:42and another for the civil suit.
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10:42 - 10:46No legal aid from the State:
I needed someone I could count on. -
10:46 - 10:50I spent everything I had on lawyers.
It was a huge sacrifice. -
10:51 - 10:55Now Andrea gives me
500 euros a month per child. -
10:55 - 10:58Wealthy as he is,
he should have given me more. -
10:58 - 11:00but properties are all
in his mother’s name. -
11:01 - 11:05He doesn’t care if our children
no longer have the same chances. -
11:05 - 11:09He doesn’t care about my efforts
to pay for English and violin lessons. -
11:09 - 11:12The children’s life has changed.
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11:12 - 11:16They give up a lot of things,
they go to public school. -
11:16 - 11:18Yet they don’t complain,
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11:18 - 11:21and they’ve never asked
to go back to their father's town. -
11:21 - 11:25They don’t miss that old farmhouse
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11:25 - 11:31with frescoed vaulted ceilings,
the terrace, those beautiful arches. -
11:32 - 11:35I work part-time as a secretary
at a museum, for 900 euros a month. -
11:35 - 11:39We have a lot of expenses, although I pay
my parents just 500 euros a month in rent. -
11:39 - 11:41A symbolic figure.
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11:41 - 11:43They're both retired teachers
with a few health problems. -
11:43 - 11:47They get by, but I can’t ask for more.
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11:47 - 11:51They already do a lot and are not wealthy.
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11:51 - 11:53They are practising Catholics,
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11:53 - 11:55and after many reservations
they have finally accepted -
11:55 - 11:58the fact that I left my husband
and asked for a separation. -
11:58 - 12:00Can you imagine,
two years ago they asked me -
12:00 - 12:02to bear it, to turn the other cheek.
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12:03 - 12:08However, my siblings
don't accept my decision. -
12:08 - 12:11They live outside Turin,
and I only see them occasionally. -
12:11 - 12:14I know I’m running
out of time now, Your Holiness. -
12:14 - 12:18Let me just tell you about
how Andrea and his family reacted. -
12:18 - 12:21When I left, he was so upset.
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12:21 - 12:24Now he’s acting like a country gentleman
hurt in his honour, -
12:24 - 12:26and I’m painted as the crazy one.
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12:26 - 12:29During the week he's in his white coat
at the emergency room. -
12:29 - 12:32On Saturdays he volunteers
at the Green Cross -
12:32 - 12:34and works with the elderly every so often.
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12:34 - 12:36Service every Sunday, of course.
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12:36 - 12:40I’m the one who made it all up.
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12:40 - 12:44He has filed against me
in court: five lawsuits. -
12:45 - 12:47My mother-in-law took it worse,
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12:47 - 12:49now a sort of wild animal
with a wounded pride. -
12:49 - 12:51She thought silence
would protect everyone. -
12:51 - 12:55She thinks I’m a witch
to send to the asylum. -
12:55 - 12:57She doesn’t understand
why I would stand up for myself, -
12:57 - 13:00get rid of my country lady life
-
13:00 - 13:04to live in a suburban apartment
that needs a reprise. -
13:04 - 13:07I’ve only whitewashed it,
she kept everything. -
13:07 - 13:09I only have a few clothes.
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13:09 - 13:11No jewellery at all, he never gave me any.
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13:12 - 13:13My string of pearls?
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13:13 - 13:17My mother's gift for my 18th birthday,
it’s a tradition in Piedmont. -
13:18 - 13:21I’ve never gone back to that town,
it’s Andrea’s territory. -
13:21 - 13:25I can’t go back to that house,
not even to get my things. -
13:25 - 13:27I ran away from there.
-
13:27 - 13:30Two years ago it was June,
and schools were about to end. -
13:30 - 13:32I barely picked up
my children’s report cards. -
13:32 - 13:35One evening Andrea
had the night shift at the hospital. -
13:35 - 13:38I took the children and left,
heading to Turin. -
13:38 - 13:40We drove 80 kilometres in an old car
-
13:40 - 13:45that Andrea's lawyers
got back a few months later. -
13:45 - 13:49We left no friends behind in the village,
neither me nor my children. -
13:49 - 13:53We were isolated, because their father
never wanted anyone over. -
13:53 - 13:58It's not been easy,
but I did it. We did it. -
13:58 - 14:01Your Holiness, I am not
asking you for anything. -
14:01 - 14:03I just wanted to tell you what happened.
-
14:04 - 14:07I go to to Church every Sunday,
and I take my children with me. -
14:07 - 14:11They were accustomed
to that beautiful old church. -
14:11 - 14:14After the service,
as the bells were chiming, -
14:14 - 14:17we would go into the square,
enjoying a view of the Langhe. -
14:17 - 14:21Now we go to the neighbourhood
parish, in Corso Francia. -
14:22 - 14:25It’s not the same thing, but that’s fine.
-
14:26 - 14:32I spoke to a priest about my story,
one I happened to meet on a train. -
14:32 - 14:34He made an impression on me.
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14:34 - 14:36His name is Father Carlo Caroglio,
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14:36 - 14:38and he said we must not
submit to violence. -
14:38 - 14:40He is a city priest, modern.
-
14:40 - 14:43A native of Alessandria, he had lived
in Novara for many years. -
14:44 - 14:47Before becoming a priest, he trained
as a chemical technologist. -
14:47 - 14:49Just like you.
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14:50 - 14:52Father Carlo was different
from the town priest, -
14:52 - 14:54the one who keeps telling Andrea:
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14:55 - 14:58“It’s not your fault
if your wife left you. -
14:58 - 15:01A wife who leaves you doesn’t love you.
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15:01 - 15:04She’s the one who should feel ashamed.
She’s not worthy of you.” -
15:06 - 15:08Andrea would beat me,
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15:08 - 15:09then he would go to the priest,
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15:09 - 15:11said he was so sorry,
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15:11 - 15:13and the priest would absolve him.
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15:13 - 15:16That’s why Andrea now feels he’s right.
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15:17 - 15:20Your Holiness, I have nothing more to say
– I don’t have time now. -
15:20 - 15:23I trust in your goodness
and understanding. -
15:24 - 15:26I have just one thing to ask:
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15:27 - 15:33please, do not allow priests
to absolve violent men no matter what. -
15:34 - 15:37My warmest regards, Ginevra.
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15:38 - 15:41(Applause)
- Title:
- A letter to Pope Francis | Farian Sabahi | TEDMilano
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Farian Sabahi is a writer, a journalist, a university teacher and an expert in Middle East. Her talk is about the issue of the "peaceful violence" hidden in many seemingly perfect families, conveyed through two imaginary letters to Pope Francis.
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