365 grateful project | Hailey Bartholomew | TEDxQUT
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0:16 - 0:20Yes, and in 2008, I discovered
the secret to happiness. -
0:20 - 0:22That's why I'm here.
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0:22 - 0:26But before I discovered it,
I was actually depressed. -
0:26 - 0:28I felt incredibly...
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0:30 - 0:31like life was a treadmill.
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0:31 - 0:33Blah about life.
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0:33 - 0:37Like there was no point
that we were going to get married, -
0:37 - 0:42have a couple of kids, buy a house,
and you know, grow old and then die. -
0:42 - 0:46It sounds a bit dramatic
because I am, but that is how I felt. -
0:47 - 0:51And I was struggling
to enjoy my life in any way. -
0:51 - 0:55I had two healthy kids, a lovely partner,
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0:55 - 1:00but it just did not feel
anything for my life. -
1:00 - 1:02It was concerning me,
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1:02 - 1:05because I wasn't being a great mum
or a great partner, -
1:05 - 1:09and I wanted to be those things;
so, I went and I found a nun. -
1:09 - 1:12I'd heard about this lady
who was helping people -
1:12 - 1:17with some counseling and kind
of spiritual directions, sort of stuff. -
1:17 - 1:21I'm not catholic, but I wanted
a whole new perspective. -
1:21 - 1:23And she suddenly gave me that.
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1:23 - 1:29I sat down with her and I was suggesting
why I might be so unhappy. -
1:29 - 1:34And she listened patiently
and then she said to me: -
1:34 - 1:39"You know, I think the secret to happiness
is reflection and gratitude." -
1:40 - 1:44And at that time, I was like:
"It's a bit underwhelming." -
1:45 - 1:47What does that mean in my life?
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1:47 - 1:49And yes I'm very grateful
for my healthy kids. -
1:49 - 1:52I know in my head
that these are good things that I have, -
1:52 - 1:54and I should be grateful.
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1:54 - 1:58But, what about this feeling?
I don't feel anything for it. -
1:59 - 2:02And so, she helped me, and she said:
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2:02 - 2:05"Hailey, I want you to do
a 10-day project, -
2:05 - 2:09just take 10 minutes everyday,
reflect through the day, -
2:09 - 2:11really think through your conversations.
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2:11 - 2:13You had breakfast,
what did you do after that? -
2:13 - 2:18and then see if there is anything there
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2:18 - 2:20that pops out to you
that you are grateful for. -
2:20 - 2:23Not what you should, but what you feel."
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2:23 - 2:27And so I took her advice and I did it.
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2:27 - 2:31And it sparked something
amazing within me -
2:31 - 2:34because I started to see things
I wouldn't otherwise have seen. -
2:34 - 2:37And they weren't the things you think.
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2:37 - 2:42And that 10-day project was amazing,
but I knew I needed more of that. -
2:42 - 2:44I needed a lot more of that.
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2:44 - 2:49So, being a photographer, I decided
I was going to do a photo a day -
2:49 - 2:53for a whole year of something
I was grateful for every single day. -
2:53 - 2:58And I bought enough Polaroid film
to do a year-long project. -
2:58 - 3:01And, this is kind of what
it started to look like. -
3:04 - 3:08Not that. Let's go back one. Yeah.
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3:08 - 3:11It was things like the color green.
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3:11 - 3:14There are billion different shades
of green there. -
3:14 - 3:16I was suddenly one day
just struck by it. -
3:16 - 3:19It was my youngest daughter
helping me down a step. -
3:19 - 3:24She is like 3, and she was like,
"I'll help you down." It's just adorable. -
3:24 - 3:29And, things like money on the meter
when you have no money in your wallet. -
3:29 - 3:32That is amazing! It is such a gift.
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3:32 - 3:35And I started to see things
like rainy days, -
3:35 - 3:38meant that I got to use
my favorite umbrellas. -
3:39 - 3:42And, pancakes on a Sunday morning.
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3:42 - 3:45They were so good, I didn't get
to photograph them. Sorry. -
3:45 - 3:46But they are there.
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3:46 - 3:49And, beautiful friends getting married.
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3:49 - 3:53Little and beautiful, special
little moments through every single day -
3:53 - 3:55that made me delighted in my day.
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3:56 - 4:00Actually, through the project
I learnt quite a lot of things -
4:01 - 4:03- sorry I keep doing it twice -
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4:03 - 4:06and probably the biggest thing
I learned was -
4:06 - 4:09how my expectations on other people
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4:09 - 4:12prevented me from
really appreciating who they were. -
4:12 - 4:15Namely my husband who is here,
and I'm going to say it: -
4:15 - 4:17he's not very romantic.
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4:19 - 4:21This is what I thought anyway.
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4:21 - 4:25I just didn't think he was very...
didn't take me on dates, -
4:25 - 4:27didn't buy a lot of flowers,
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4:27 - 4:31and do all the things that in my head
a husband should do. -
4:31 - 4:34And this one day I hadn't taken
my grateful photo for the day, -
4:34 - 4:38and I was scanning my life, basically:
"what was I grateful for today?" -
4:38 - 4:44And I was looking around the room,
and then I saw my husband serving dinner. -
4:44 - 4:46And in the corner of my eye,
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4:46 - 4:49I watched as he put
the biggest piece of pie on my plate. -
4:49 - 4:52The best piece of pie on my plate.
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4:52 - 4:55And, I was like whoa!
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4:55 - 4:59I wouldn't have seen it
if I hadn't been looking. -
4:59 - 5:03And he was doing that every day actually.
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5:03 - 5:06He was putting me fully first.
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5:06 - 5:09But I was not seeing it
because I was not looking. -
5:11 - 5:16And it completely changed my view
of how I see people, particularly him. -
5:16 - 5:18And through the project
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5:18 - 5:23he just continued to do beautiful things
not even thinking about it. -
5:23 - 5:28Everyday he would drive somewhere,
he would always hold my hand as we drove. -
5:28 - 5:31He would sing our daughters
to sleep with a ukulele. -
5:33 - 5:37And if I rang complaining one day,
when he was at work: -
5:37 - 5:40"Our house is too hot,
we have no air-conditioning," -
5:40 - 5:42he would arrive with ice-cream.
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5:44 - 5:48And it really made me
reevaluate our relationship -
5:48 - 5:53and what my expectations were,
and opened my eyes to who he was. -
5:53 - 5:57Actually, at the end of the project
someone interviewed us. -
5:57 - 5:58And they ask Andrew:
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5:58 - 6:03"What did you notice that was different
within your relationship with Hailey? -
6:03 - 6:07And he said: "I feel like
I am enough for her now." -
6:10 - 6:15And that hit me hard, I've been married
to him for 8 years at that point, -
6:15 - 6:19and I was so sad that it had taken me
eight years to see him. -
6:19 - 6:23To see all the beautiful things
he was doing for me every single day. -
6:25 - 6:30But I'm glad that I got there in the end,
and I'm grateful for this project. -
6:30 - 6:35The other thing I noticed was nature.
It was so unexpected. -
6:35 - 6:39But nature just spoke to me, so much.
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6:39 - 6:44The color red that would shine
just so differently if the sun was on it; -
6:44 - 6:48When my daughter would put beautiful
little flowers in my handbag; -
6:48 - 6:53or mint, the smell of mint
is amazing. It's beautiful. -
6:53 - 6:57All the way weeds would dance
when you drove pass your car. -
6:57 - 6:58The wind would blow them.
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6:58 - 7:03Or dandelions; I like dandelions
all over my backyard. -
7:03 - 7:06I think they are beautiful.
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7:06 - 7:10And all this little things started
to make me feel so like I was blessed. -
7:10 - 7:14I'm so lucky to be here,
to see those little gifts. -
7:14 - 7:17A beetle flew onto my daughter shirt
one day in a car park. -
7:17 - 7:20You could see she's absolutely
thrilled about that. -
7:20 - 7:26But I was amazed, she had this beetle.
It was like a piece of jewelry. -
7:26 - 7:29It was amazing, and it stayed there
long enough for me to take a photo, -
7:29 - 7:34and she's like, "Get it off, get it off!"
And I'm like, "Stay still." -
7:34 - 7:38Anyway, other thing I learnt
was about parenting. -
7:38 - 7:44I had really felt like this was
the most boring job I have ever had. -
7:44 - 7:46And it was long,
and there were lots of food, -
7:46 - 7:49and lots of nappies, and things
that were boring like dishes, -
7:49 - 7:52and people would always say:
"What have you been up today?" -
7:52 - 7:55And I was like, "Don't ask me."
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7:55 - 7:57But this project showed me
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7:57 - 8:01what a delight and an honor it was
to be in their company. -
8:01 - 8:05To be with them, as they, you know,
offered to take my hand. -
8:05 - 8:10We were singing so loudly
in the car as we drove -
8:10 - 8:12pretending to be candy cans.
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8:12 - 8:14(Laughter)
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8:16 - 8:18Loosing their two front teeth.
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8:18 - 8:21It is my privilege that I got
that time with them. -
8:21 - 8:23And I started to see that right
when I was with them. -
8:23 - 8:27I'm so grateful that I,
while they were still little, -
8:27 - 8:30that I saw what a gift it was.
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8:32 - 8:34One of the amazing things
about this project -
8:34 - 8:37is that it spread like wild fire.
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8:37 - 8:40I had a magazine article,
and it was online. -
8:40 - 8:42and few people started to write
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8:42 - 8:46and tell me their own stories
with their grateful projects. -
8:46 - 8:49It's been a complete honor to have that.
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8:49 - 8:54This particular person is Amy Guill.
She and I become good friends. -
8:55 - 8:58But, she wrote to me an email one day,
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8:58 - 9:02not long after she had given
birth to twin daughters. -
9:02 - 9:06And one of them, 24 days later
died of a heart complication. -
9:06 - 9:11I would like to read to you
a piece of her letter to me. -
9:12 - 9:15And Amy knows that I'm reading this.
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9:16 - 9:18"The next few days were hard.
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9:18 - 9:20I had to pick myself up and keep going
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9:20 - 9:23as I had Anabella, 3 years old,
and Penny who needed me. -
9:23 - 9:25And I was so lost.
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9:25 - 9:28It was funny though
because, for some reasons, -
9:28 - 9:30your article kept coming back to me.
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9:30 - 9:33I dug out the magazine,
and I looked at it again. -
9:33 - 9:34I checked out your website.
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9:34 - 9:37I decided that this was
how I was going to cope, -
9:37 - 9:41Instead of looking at what I've lost,
I was going to focus on what I gained. -
9:41 - 9:46And be truly grateful for having Rosie
in our lives even for such a short time. -
9:46 - 9:51In her 24 days, she had taught me
more than I learned in a lifetime. -
9:51 - 9:57I was grateful for the chance
to hold her, to feed her, to bath her, -
9:57 - 9:59and tell her that I loved her.
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9:59 - 10:02No longer would I take
the small things for granted in my life. -
10:02 - 10:04Life is too short,
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10:04 - 10:08and I've decided that each day
I will count my blessings -
10:08 - 10:12and so, my grateful project
"Count your blessings" begin. -
10:12 - 10:16And now, I've taken 73 blessing photos,
and I'm truly grateful for them. -
10:16 - 10:19The project has gotten me
through such a hard time. -
10:19 - 10:24Yes, I still have my moments of sadness,
but I've so many moments of joy. -
10:24 - 10:26I've chosen to be happy.
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10:26 - 10:29And this week I've been looking
back at my album -
10:29 - 10:31and reflecting on where I've come from.
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10:31 - 10:34And I want to thank you, Hailey,
for being an inspiration. -
10:34 - 10:38For you, I am truly grateful. Amy."
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10:38 - 10:44And I can not tell you what a honor it is
to be part of someone's story in that way. -
10:47 - 10:51Amy really, really reminded me
that even in the hard things in life, -
10:51 - 10:53we can choose to be grateful,
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10:53 - 10:57that we can find the most amazing
treasure in the most awful things. -
11:00 - 11:03You really do find
what you are looking for. -
11:03 - 11:07And in my life, when I have had
hard times and things going wrong, -
11:07 - 11:11I really found that gratefulness
has helped me to learn -
11:11 - 11:13the most I can possibly learn
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11:13 - 11:18and appreciate
everything that's happening, -
11:18 - 11:21and to find the gold in the mud.
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11:26 - 11:29When I looked back
on my project and actually my life, -
11:29 - 11:31I see delight, I see beauty,
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11:31 - 11:35I see a life I'm incredibly rich
and grateful for. -
11:35 - 11:39It isn't in that I own a house,
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11:39 - 11:42it is not happiness outside of me,
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11:42 - 11:44it is within me.
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11:44 - 11:47And I learned that is
where my happiness is, -
11:47 - 11:49it's in here.
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11:49 - 11:52And through this project
I've surprisingly been able -
11:52 - 11:57to help other people find out that, too,
and that's been an absolute honor. -
11:57 - 11:58Thank you very much for having me.
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11:58 - 12:00(Applause)
- Title:
- 365 grateful project | Hailey Bartholomew | TEDxQUT
- Description:
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This talk was given at a local TEDx event, produced independently of the TED Conferences.
Hailey Bartholomew found the secret to happiness. After struggling to enjoy and appreciate all of the great things in her life she set our on a year long photography project to find gratitude everyday. In this funny and moving talk see what lessons we can all learn from her experience. - Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 12:05
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