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Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.82,0:00:06.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I was just a little girl, \NI asked my mother
Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.100,0:00:10.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,“What will I be? Will I be pretty?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:10.20,0:00:13.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Will I be pretty? Will I be pretty?"
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.14,0:00:15.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What comes next?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.38,0:00:17.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oh right, "will I be rich?”
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.16,0:00:19.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Which is almost pretty \Ndepending on where you shop.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.62,0:00:22.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the pretty question \Ninfects from conception,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.21,0:00:23.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,passing blood and breath into cells.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.99,0:00:26.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The word hangs from our mothers' hearts
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.22,0:00:29.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in a shrill fluorescent \Nfloodlight of worry.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:29.57,0:00:32.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Will I be wanted? Worthy? Pretty?"
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.51,0:00:36.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But puberty left me this funhouse mirror triad:
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.67,0:00:39.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,teeth set at science fiction angles, crooked nose,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.23,0:00:41.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,face donkey-long and pox-marked
Dialogue: 0,0:00:41.67,0:00:44.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where the hormones went finger-painting.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:45.40,0:00:47.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My poor mother.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.47,0:00:50.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"How could this happen?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.12,0:00:53.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You'll have porcelain skin as soon \Nas we can see a dermatologist.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.23,0:00:54.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You sucked your thumb.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.30,0:00:56.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's why your teeth look like that!
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.11,0:00:57.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You were hit in the face \Nwith a Frisbee when you were 6.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:57.89,0:01:00.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Otherwise your nose \Nwould have been just fine!
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.13,0:01:03.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Don't worry, we'll get it all fixed!"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.80,0:01:05.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she would say, grasping my face,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.61,0:01:07.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,twisting it this way then that,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.63,0:01:10.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as if it were a cabbage she might buy.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:11.65,0:01:13.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But this is not about her.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.68,0:01:14.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not her fault.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.53,0:01:15.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She, too, was raised to believe
Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.88,0:01:18.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the greatest asset she could \Nbestow upon her awkward little girl
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.99,0:01:21.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was a marketable facade.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.43,0:01:25.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By 16, I was pickled with \Nointments, medications, peroxides.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.89,0:01:27.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Teeth corralled into steel prongs.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.62,0:01:30.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Laying in a hospital bed,\Nface packed with gauze,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.53,0:01:34.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cushioning the brand new nose\Nthe surgeon had carved.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.14,0:01:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Belly gorged on 2 pints of my own blood\NI had swallowed under anesthesia,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.80,0:01:41.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and every convulsive twist of my gut
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.88,0:01:44.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like my body screaming \Nat me from the inside out,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:44.69,0:01:48.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What did you let them do to you!"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.52,0:01:52.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All the while this never-ending \Nchorus droning on and on,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.72,0:01:55.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like the IV needle dripping \Nliquid beauty into my blood.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.64,0:01:57.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,“Will I be pretty? Will I be pretty?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.82,0:01:59.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like my mother, unwinding the gift wrap
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.69,0:02:03.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to reveal the bouquet of daughter\Nher $10,000 bought her?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:03.71,0:02:06.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Pretty? Pretty."
Dialogue: 0,0:02:06.64,0:02:09.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And now, I have not seen \Nmy own face in 10 years.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.46,0:02:13.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have not seen my own face in 10 years,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.19,0:02:16.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but this is not about me.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.01,0:02:19.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is about the self-mutilating circus
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.19,0:02:21.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we have painted ourselves clowns in.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.02,0:02:23.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,About women who will \Nprowl 30 stores in 6 malls
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.79,0:02:26.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to find the right cocktail dress,\Nbut who haven't a clue
Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.55,0:02:29.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where to find fulfillment or how wear joy,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.82,0:02:32.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wandering through life \Nshackled to a shopping bag,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.39,0:02:36.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,beneath the tyranny \Nof those 2 pretty syllables.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.25,0:02:38.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,About men wallowing on bar stools,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.08,0:02:39.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,drearily practicing attraction
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.76,0:02:41.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and everyone who will drift home tonight,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.82,0:02:46.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,crest-fallen because not enough \Nstrangers found you suitably fuckable.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.34,0:02:53.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This, this is about \Nmy own some-day daughter.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.84,0:02:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you approach me,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.10,0:02:57.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,already stung-stayed \Nwith insecurity, begging,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.41,0:03:00.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Mom, will I be pretty? Will I be pretty?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.96,0:03:04.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I will wipe that question \Nfrom your mouth like cheap lipstick
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.16,0:03:06.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and answer, “No!
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.28,0:03:09.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The word pretty is unworthy\Nof everything you will be,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.19,0:03:12.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and no child of mine\Nwill be contained in five letters.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.37,0:03:14.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You will be pretty intelligent,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.47,0:03:17.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pretty creative, pretty amazing.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.30,0:03:19.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you will never be
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.19,0:03:23.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,merely 'pretty'."