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Is this what you want?

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he asked

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And I said yes

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So he took his skin off for me

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It happened just before dinner

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I'd bought a fresh cut of lamb for a recipe I wanted to try

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He always liked it when I cooked.

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I could see everything

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he was beautiful

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Some things were no different

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lovemaking, for example, was the same

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just two people showing each other what they really look like

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of course, some things were new

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The sheets needed to be washed each day

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they took in the smells of his open body

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and released them long after he had gone to work

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I had to clean the house more often

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A few hours a day if I could

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It was the least I could do

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At night he got cold so easily

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I'd say to him, at least it's not winter

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And we would smile

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But we both knew it was coming

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I tried to be understanding, but I was boiling.

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And gas isn't cheap

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He said he wasn't having luck with clients

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I said they were the wrong clients

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the right clients won't care, I said

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the right clients will understand

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he said we'd run out of money if we only waited for the right ones

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I said he'd figure it out

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some of his old friends came by

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they asked him about his skin

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just normal questions you would ask

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do you miss it?

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does it hurt?

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he'd answer yes or no

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simple answers

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it was unlike him

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he loved words

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loved to use many when a few was enough

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but either he had less to say now

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or he felt he was already saying it