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Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.08,0:00:03.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我最後一次聽到我仔把聲
Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.60,0:00:05.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢出緊前門
Dialogue: 0,0:00:05.96,0:00:07.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,去返學
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.10,0:00:10.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,門口好黑，佢就講咗一個字
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.32,0:00:12.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「拜。」
Dialogue: 0,0:00:12.98,0:00:13.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,1999 年
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.98,0:00:16.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,4 月 20 號朝早
Dialogue: 0,0:00:16.55,0:00:19.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我個仔迪倫同佢朋友艾瑞克
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.94,0:00:22.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺科倫拜高中
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.92,0:00:25.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,殺咗 12 個學生同一個老師
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.28,0:00:29.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,傷咗 20 幾個人之後自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.16,0:00:34.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,13 個無辜嘅人被殺
Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.24,0:00:37.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,留畀佢哋嘅親友\N無限悲痛同創傷
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.32,0:00:40.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其他傷者
Dialogue: 0,0:00:40.20,0:00:44.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有人毁咗容，有人終生殘廢
Dialogue: 0,0:00:45.84,0:00:47.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係，呢個慘案嘅危害性
Dialogue: 0,0:00:47.68,0:00:51.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔可以用傷亡人數來衡量
Dialogue: 0,0:00:52.72,0:00:56.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋亦冇辦法去衡量佢
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.16,0:00:58.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,對喺學校嘅目擊人同參與救援
Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.12,0:01:01.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同清理嘅人造成嘅心裡創傷
Dialogue: 0,0:01:02.28,0:01:03.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,亦冇辦法估量其他人模仿
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.68,0:01:08.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢個槍殺案
Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.96,0:01:12.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,會造成嘅影響
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.60,0:01:15.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,科倫拜慘案係個大浪
Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.20,0:01:17.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,風波之後，社會需要好耐來
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.44,0:01:23.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,消化、理解同認識佢嘅影響
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.72,0:01:26.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我用咗好多年來接受\N
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.76,0:01:29.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我個仔留低嘅問題
Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.76,0:01:32.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,暴行定義咗佢最後嘅人生
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.92,0:01:36.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢已經唔係我識嗰個人
Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.60,0:01:39.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,修尾有人問我
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.00,0:01:41.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「你點解會唔知？
Dialogue: 0,0:01:42.56,0:01:44.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你到底點做媽咪？」
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.24,0:01:47.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我都猛咁問自己
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.08,0:01:51.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,槍擊案之前，我自認係個好媽咪
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.76,0:01:55.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,幫助我啲仔女成為體貼
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.24,0:01:57.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,健康、負責嘅成年人
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.60,0:02:01.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係我一世人最重要嘅角色
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.76,0:02:05.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係呢個悲劇話我知\N我做媽咪好失敗
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.84,0:02:09.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,挫敗感使我今日企喺呢度
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.24,0:02:12.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,除咗佢嘅爸爸
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.52,0:02:16.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我係最了解同最愛迪倫嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.80,0:02:19.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,假使有人可以預料到呢件事
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.08,0:02:20.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰個人應該係我，係咪？
Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.00,0:02:23.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係我唔知
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.44,0:02:27.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,今日，我想分享下我作為
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.36,0:02:31.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一個殺人兇手嘅媽咪嘅感受
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.20,0:02:33.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,慘案之後好多年\N
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.20,0:02:36.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我猛咁梳理我啲記憶
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.08,0:02:39.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,諗我到底做錯咗咩
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.28,0:02:43.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我揾唔到明確嘅答案
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.04,0:02:44.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,亦冇任何解決方案
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.52,0:02:46.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我可以做嘅，唯有
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.76,0:02:50.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同你哋分享我嘅經驗同教訓
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.44,0:02:55.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同槍擊案之後\N先識我嘅人傾偈時
Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.08,0:02:56.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我要面對三個挑戰
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.64,0:03:00.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第一，我行入類似宜家間房時
Dialogue: 0,0:03:01.48,0:03:05.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我冇辦法知道，有冇人因為我嘅仔
Dialogue: 0,0:03:05.08,0:03:06.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,受到過傷害
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.08,0:03:12.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我要承認我個仔
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.24,0:03:14.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,造成咗嘅災難
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.08,0:03:17.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,首先，我誠摯咁
Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.32,0:03:21.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,為我個仔對你哋\N造成嘅傷害道歉
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.64,0:03:25.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第二個挑戰
Dialogue: 0,0:03:26.04,0:03:29.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係我講我個仔\N係死於自殺時
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.56,0:03:33.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我需要你哋嘅諒解，甚至同情
Dialogue: 0,0:03:34.48,0:03:36.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺佢過身前兩年
Dialogue: 0,0:03:36.64,0:03:38.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢曾經喺本日記度寫
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.88,0:03:40.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢係度自殘
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.20,0:03:42.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話佢好痛苦
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.84,0:03:45.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,想摞把槍了結自己
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.16,0:03:49.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我喺佢死後幾個月先知道
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.72,0:03:54.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我講我個仔係自殺時
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.16,0:03:58.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔係想減輕佢嘅罪過
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.84,0:04:00.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我只係試圖去理解
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.84,0:04:02.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,點解佢自殺嘅意圖
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.96,0:04:04.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,會導致一場屠殺
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.08,0:04:08.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,讀咗好多文章，同資訊專家之後
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.32,0:04:09.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我逐漸相信
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.00,0:04:14.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢策劃槍擊案唔係想殺人
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.48,0:04:17.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而係想自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.32,0:04:23.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,講我個仔嘅自殺謀殺時\N第三個挑戰
Dialogue: 0,0:04:23.64,0:04:26.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就係講心理健康
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.68,0:04:28.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔好意思
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.92,0:04:31.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就係講心理健康
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.56,0:04:35.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,稱為大腦健康會更準確
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.76,0:04:39.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同时，我亦係度講緊暴力
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.52,0:04:43.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我當然唔想加重
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.12,0:04:46.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,大家對心理疾病嘅誤解
Dialogue: 0,0:04:46.36,0:04:51.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,只有好少有心理疾病嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.16,0:04:53.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,對其他人有暴力傾向
Dialogue: 0,0:04:54.80,0:04:57.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係，自殺嘅群體
Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.96,0:05:02.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有 75%，甚至 90%
Dialogue: 0,0:05:02.20,0:05:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有可以被診斷嘅心理健康狀況
Dialogue: 0,0:05:06.68,0:05:07.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,眾所周知，我哋嘅心理健康
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.96,0:05:10.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,醫療機制照顧唔到每一個人
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.00,0:05:14.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同時，唔係每個有破壞性傾向嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.52,0:05:16.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,都會診斷到嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.28,0:05:18.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,心理病
Dialogue: 0,0:05:19.20,0:05:21.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好多覺得恐懼、憤怒、或者絕望嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.24,0:05:24.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,從來都冇
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.00,0:05:26.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,俾診斷或者治療過
Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.64,0:05:32.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,等到有行為危機時\N我哋先注意到佢哋
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.40,0:05:35.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,根據統計數據
Dialogue: 0,0:05:35.48,0:05:38.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,大概百分之一到二嘅自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.44,0:05:40.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,會導致另一個人嘅死亡
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.08,0:05:46.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一個群體嘅自殺率上升時
Dialogue: 0,0:05:46.72,0:05:49.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢嘅自殺加謀殺率亦會上升
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.52,0:05:56.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我好想了解，迪倫喺死前諗緊咩
Dialogue: 0,0:05:56.04,0:05:59.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,於是我去研究啲自殺未遂嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.64,0:06:06.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我做調查，又幫手籌款
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.20,0:06:07.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一有機會
Dialogue: 0,0:06:08.00,0:06:12.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就同啲自殺未遂
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.52,0:06:13.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者有自殺傾向嘅人倾偈
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.84,0:06:17.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我一個同事
Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.08,0:06:18.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,畀我好大嘅啟發
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.56,0:06:20.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢之前喺辦公室
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.49,0:06:21.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,偶然聽到我同人講
Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.76,0:06:26.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,迪倫肯定唔愛我，唔係嘅話
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.20,0:06:28.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢點會做出咁恐怖嘅事
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.00,0:06:31.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,之後，我呢個同事單獨嚟搵我
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.76,0:06:35.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話，唔好意思，無意中聽到我講嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.24,0:06:36.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同時間話我知，我係錯嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.88,0:06:40.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢係個後生嘅單身媽咪時
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.52,0:06:41.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢要湊住三個細蚊仔
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.60,0:06:47.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢變得好抑鬱，需要住院來確保安全
Dialogue: 0,0:06:48.00,0:06:50.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰個時候，佢堅信
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.32,0:06:53.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果佢死咗，佢嘅细路仔會更好
Dialogue: 0,0:06:53.60,0:06:55.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,於是佢準備自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.88,0:07:00.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話，母愛係世界上最堅韌嘅紐帶
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.96,0:07:04.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢愛佢嘅仔女，多於世上嘅一切
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.64,0:07:06.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係因為佢個病
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.88,0:07:09.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢堅信佢啲仔女冇佢仲好
Dialogue: 0,0:07:11.68,0:07:14.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我從佢同其他人身上學到
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.08,0:07:18.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋對自殺嘅抉擇
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.84,0:07:20.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同我哋諗買邊駕車
Dialogue: 0,0:07:20.44,0:07:23.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者星期六去邊度玩嘅嗰種選擇
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.32,0:07:25.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係好唔同
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.36,0:07:29.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺一個人極度想自殺時
Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.48,0:07:34.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢處於最嚴重嘅醫學緊急狀態
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.68,0:07:39.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢嘅思考能力受損，冇曬自律能力
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.32,0:07:43.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,儘管佢哋計劃同執行時好有逻辑
Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.52,0:07:47.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢嘅是非觀已經俾痛苦扭曲
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.48,0:07:50.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢種痛苦改變咗\N佢哋對現實嘅理解
Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.88,0:07:54.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有哋人好識掩飾自己
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.56,0:07:56.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為迫不得已
Dialogue: 0,0:07:58.84,0:08:02.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好多人都諗過自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:08:02.04,0:08:05.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果呢個念頭揮之唔去
Dialogue: 0,0:08:05.56,0:08:07.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,仲會諗點去執行
Dialogue: 0,0:08:07.80,0:08:10.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢就好似其他疾病
Dialogue: 0,0:08:10.16,0:08:12.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係一種病態
Dialogue: 0,0:08:12.08,0:08:14.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢種病況需要、喺仲有得救時
Dialogue: 0,0:08:15.52,0:08:17.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,辨認同治療
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.60,0:08:21.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係我個仔唔單止自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.20,0:08:23.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢仲導致咗一場屠殺
Dialogue: 0,0:08:25.08,0:08:30.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我想知，佢嘅自殺傾向\N點變成謀殺傾向
Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.92,0:08:33.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢方面嘅研究好少
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.24,0:08:36.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,冇簡單同直接嘅答案
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.24,0:08:39.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,冇錯，佢一直都有抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.68,0:08:46.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢係個完美主義者，唔鍾意依靠人
Dialogue: 0,0:08:47.12,0:08:50.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢嘅性格使佢\N好少向其他人求助
Dialogue: 0,0:08:51.88,0:08:55.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢曾經喺學校經歷過使佢覺得
Dialogue: 0,0:08:55.36,0:09:00.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,羞愧，屈辱同憤怒嘅觸發事件
Dialogue: 0,0:09:02.16,0:09:05.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而且，佢同一個\N係憤怒同孤獨嘅男仔
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.44,0:09:09.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有個複雜嘅關係
Dialogue: 0,0:09:09.80,0:09:12.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢個男仔處於極度不安嘅狀態
Dialogue: 0,0:09:12.92,0:09:14.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有強烈嘅控制慾同嗜殺慾
Dialogue: 0,0:09:16.28,0:09:19.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺佢哋人生裡邊
Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.16,0:09:22.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,最脆弱嘅時候
Dialogue: 0,0:09:23.28,0:09:25.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,即使我哋屋企冇槍
Dialogue: 0,0:09:25.68,0:09:27.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,迪倫都有其他渠道摞到咗槍支
Dialogue: 0,0:09:28.80,0:09:34.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一個十七歲嘅男仔，合法或者非法
Dialogue: 0,0:09:34.04,0:09:36.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔使我知道或允許\N就輕易摞到槍支
Dialogue: 0,0:09:39.88,0:09:44.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,過去十七年嚟嘅校園槍擊
Dialogue: 0,0:09:45.08,0:09:46.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,買賣槍支依然係\N令人膽寒嘅容易
Dialogue: 0,0:09:49.16,0:09:51.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,迪倫嗰日做嘅嘢令我心碎
Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.24,0:09:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,創傷就係有咁嘅後果
Dialogue: 0,0:09:55.12,0:09:58.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,時刻折磨住我嘅身心
Dialogue: 0,0:09:59.36,0:10:01.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,槍擊事件後兩年，我得咗乳腺癌
Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.20,0:10:06.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,再過咗两年，我得咗心理病
Dialogue: 0,0:10:08.48,0:10:11.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同永久嘅悲哀
Dialogue: 0,0:10:11.92,0:10:15.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我好驚我會撞見
Dialogue: 0,0:10:15.52,0:10:17.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,被害人嘅家屬
Dialogue: 0,0:10:17.60,0:10:19.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者媒體
Dialogue: 0,0:10:20.00,0:10:21.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者一個憤怒嘅市民
Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.92,0:10:25.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我怕開電視睇新聞
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.52,0:10:30.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,驚人哋鬧我衰，鬧我核突
Dialogue: 0,0:10:33.32,0:10:35.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我開始有恐慌發作
Dialogue: 0,0:10:37.24,0:10:41.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第一發作喺槍擊案後四年
Dialogue: 0,0:10:41.44,0:10:43.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我準備去法庭作證
Dialogue: 0,0:10:44.00,0:10:46.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,要面對被害人家屬嗰
Dialogue: 0,0:10:47.60,0:10:50.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第二次發作，喺槍擊案後六年
Dialogue: 0,0:10:51.00,0:10:54.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我生來第一次
Dialogue: 0,0:10:54.48,0:10:56.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,公開參加討論自殺加謀殺
Dialogue: 0,0:10:57.52,0:10:59.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,兩次發作，每次延續幾個星期
Dialogue: 0,0:11:02.16,0:11:04.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,恐慌發作隨時會發生
Dialogue: 0,0:11:04.32,0:11:07.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺五金店，喺寫字樓
Dialogue: 0,0:11:07.64,0:11:09.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,甚至喺床上睇書嗰時
Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.60,0:11:15.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我會突然充滿恐懼
Dialogue: 0,0:11:15.68,0:11:17.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,無論我點試住
Dialogue: 0,0:11:17.80,0:11:21.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,冷靜落來
Dialogue: 0,0:11:21.88,0:11:23.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我做唔到
Dialogue: 0,0:11:24.44,0:11:27.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,感覺好似，我嘅大腦整死我
Dialogue: 0,0:11:27.92,0:11:30.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,之後，我一直
Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.52,0:11:32.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好驚自己咁驚
Dialogue: 0,0:11:33.20,0:11:35.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢個就係我嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:11:35.12,0:11:37.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,大腦失常嘅親身經歷
Dialogue: 0,0:11:38.64,0:11:42.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以，我係大腦健康嘅擁護者
Dialogue: 0,0:11:43.76,0:11:46.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,用藥物治療同自我護理
Dialogue: 0,0:11:46.76,0:11:48.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我嘅生活慢慢返到正軌
Dialogue: 0,0:11:48.60,0:11:52.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,變到相對嘅正常
Dialogue: 0,0:11:53.24,0:11:55.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我諗下過去， 逐漸明白
Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.32,0:11:58.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我個仔臨死前兩年可能
Dialogue: 0,0:11:59.68,0:12:03.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為機能失調過得好辛苦
Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.20,0:12:05.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰時，哪怕有一個人知道佢需要幫助
Dialogue: 0,0:12:06.28,0:12:09.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,又知道點做
Dialogue: 0,0:12:09.32,0:12:10.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,兩年時間咁長，肯定有機會幫到佢
Dialogue: 0,0:12:15.68,0:12:18.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,每一次有人問我
Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.28,0:12:20.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「你點會唔知？」
Dialogue: 0,0:12:20.76,0:12:22.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好似重重一拳打落我個心度
Dialogue: 0,0:12:23.84,0:12:28.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,指責我，引發我嘅負罪感
Dialogue: 0,0:12:28.40,0:12:30.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,無論我接受幾多治療
Dialogue: 0,0:12:30.92,0:12:32.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,永遠都唔會完全好返
Dialogue: 0,0:12:33.88,0:12:35.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,從中我學到
Dialogue: 0,0:12:36.72,0:12:38.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果愛就夠曬
Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.60,0:12:40.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,去打消一個人自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:12:40.76,0:12:42.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同傷人嘅念頭
Dialogue: 0,0:12:43.00,0:12:45.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,咁自殺就幾乎唔會發生
Dialogue: 0,0:12:46.32,0:12:48.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係如果有愛仲唔夠
Dialogue: 0,0:12:49.24,0:12:51.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,咁自殺會普遍咁發生
Dialogue: 0,0:12:51.68,0:12:54.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,自殺喺 10 至 34 歲嘅群體
Dialogue: 0,0:12:54.52,0:12:56.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係第二大致死原因
Dialogue: 0,0:12:56.96,0:12:59.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,舊年 2016 年
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.98,0:13:01.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,百分之十五嘅美國青少年
Dialogue: 0,0:13:02.99,0:13:04.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,話自己計劃過自殺
Dialogue: 0,0:13:05.86,0:13:07.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我認識到，無論我哋幾想做到
Dialogue: 0,0:13:07.06,0:13:10.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋永遠都唔知道，亦控制唔到
Dialogue: 0,0:13:12.77,0:13:15.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋愛嘅人嘅所有諗法同感覺
Dialogue: 0,0:13:15.30,0:13:17.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋堅信，我哋同其他人唔同
Dialogue: 0,0:13:19.95,0:13:23.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以我愛嘅人唔會去自殘
Dialogue: 0,0:13:23.09,0:13:25.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者傷害其他人
Dialogue: 0,0:13:25.93,0:13:27.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢個觀念會導致我哋忽視
Dialogue: 0,0:13:27.29,0:13:29.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,平靜嘅表面下邊嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.14,0:13:32.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,假使最壞嘅事發生咗
Dialogue: 0,0:13:36.03,0:13:39.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋要學識\N原諒自己唔知嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:13:39.47,0:13:43.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,原諒自己冇發現嘅問題
Dialogue: 0,0:13:43.36,0:13:46.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,原諒自己冇搵到對策
Dialogue: 0,0:13:47.21,0:13:49.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋應該假設
Dialogue: 0,0:13:49.14,0:13:50.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋所愛嘅人可能受緊折磨
Dialogue: 0,0:13:52.78,0:13:55.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,即使佢嘅言行
Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.53,0:13:57.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好正常
Dialogue: 0,0:13:57.73,0:13:58.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋應該用成個身心咁
Dialogue: 0,0:13:59.00,0:14:01.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔帶任何偏見咁
Dialogue: 0,0:14:01.12,0:14:02.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,未必畀到解決方法咁去傾聽
Dialogue: 0,0:14:07.36,0:14:09.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我好清楚，我成世都
Dialogue: 0,0:14:09.80,0:14:11.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,會帶著呢個悲劇
Dialogue: 0,0:14:12.47,0:14:14.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢幾個悲劇，一直行落去
Dialogue: 0,0:14:15.29,0:14:16.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我知道，好多人諗
Dialogue: 0,0:14:21.05,0:14:23.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我嘅損失嘅\N遠唔及受害者家屬
Dialogue: 0,0:14:25.93,0:14:29.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我嘅掙扎\N唔會減輕佢哋嘅痛苦
Dialogue: 0,0:14:30.56,0:14:33.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有人認為，我冇痛苦嘅權利
Dialogue: 0,0:14:35.27,0:14:38.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,只有用成世去贖罪
Dialogue: 0,0:14:41.03,0:14:42.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我嘅總結係
Dialogue: 0,0:14:45.32,0:14:47.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋就算再負責再警覺
Dialogue: 0,0:14:51.59,0:14:53.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,最尾都可能\N防止唔到悲劇嘅發生
Dialogue: 0,0:14:54.86,0:14:57.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係為咗愛
Dialogue: 0,0:14:57.04,0:14:59.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋絕唔可以放棄嘗試
Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.24,0:15:00.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,去了解現實背後嘅未知
Dialogue: 0,0:15:01.56,0:15:02.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,多謝
Dialogue: 0,0:15:02.80,0:15:04.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（掌聲）