1 00:00:00,306 --> 00:00:02,926 Hi. My name is Cameron Russell, 2 00:00:02,950 --> 00:00:08,979 and for the last little while, I've been a model. 3 00:00:09,003 --> 00:00:11,344 Actually, for 10 years. 4 00:00:12,990 --> 00:00:15,146 And I feel like 5 00:00:15,170 --> 00:00:17,970 there's an uncomfortable tension in the room right now 6 00:00:17,994 --> 00:00:20,017 because I should not have worn this dress. 7 00:00:20,041 --> 00:00:21,799 (Laughter) 8 00:00:21,823 --> 00:00:24,297 So luckily, I brought an outfit change. 9 00:00:24,321 --> 00:00:27,946 This is the first outfit change on the TED stage, 10 00:00:27,970 --> 00:00:30,992 so you guys are pretty lucky to witness it, I think. 11 00:00:31,016 --> 00:00:33,933 If some of the women were really horrified when I came out, 12 00:00:33,957 --> 00:00:37,100 you don't have to tell me now, but I'll find out later on Twitter. 13 00:00:37,124 --> 00:00:40,344 (Laughter) 14 00:00:42,315 --> 00:00:44,173 I'd also note that I'm quite privileged 15 00:00:44,197 --> 00:00:47,251 to be able to transform what you think of me 16 00:00:47,275 --> 00:00:49,914 in a very brief 10 seconds. 17 00:00:49,938 --> 00:00:51,683 Not everybody gets to do that. 18 00:00:53,400 --> 00:00:57,234 These heels are very uncomfortable, so good thing I wasn't going to wear them. 19 00:00:59,239 --> 00:01:01,760 The worst part is putting this sweater over my head, 20 00:01:01,784 --> 00:01:03,833 because that's when you'll all laugh at me, 21 00:01:03,857 --> 00:01:05,965 so don't do anything while it's over my head. 22 00:01:07,745 --> 00:01:08,762 All right. 23 00:01:10,983 --> 00:01:13,690 So, why did I do that? 24 00:01:13,714 --> 00:01:14,920 That was awkward. 25 00:01:14,944 --> 00:01:16,872 (Laughter) 26 00:01:16,896 --> 00:01:18,007 Well... 27 00:01:18,031 --> 00:01:20,397 (Laughter) 28 00:01:20,421 --> 00:01:24,112 Hopefully not as awkward as that picture. 29 00:01:25,306 --> 00:01:28,064 Image is powerful, 30 00:01:28,088 --> 00:01:31,489 but also, image is superficial. 31 00:01:33,036 --> 00:01:37,455 I just totally transformed what you thought of me, in six seconds. 32 00:01:37,479 --> 00:01:39,294 And in this picture, 33 00:01:39,318 --> 00:01:41,865 I had actually never had a boyfriend in real life. 34 00:01:42,643 --> 00:01:44,436 I was totally uncomfortable, 35 00:01:44,460 --> 00:01:46,938 and the photographer was telling me to arch my back 36 00:01:46,962 --> 00:01:48,657 and put my hand in that guy's hair. 37 00:01:51,013 --> 00:01:52,989 And of course, barring surgery, 38 00:01:53,013 --> 00:01:56,430 or the fake tan that I got two days ago for work, 39 00:01:56,454 --> 00:02:00,191 there's very little that we can do to transform how we look, 40 00:02:00,215 --> 00:02:03,647 and how we look, though it is superficial and immutable, 41 00:02:03,671 --> 00:02:05,981 has a huge impact on our lives. 42 00:02:08,034 --> 00:02:12,638 So today, for me, being fearless means being honest. 43 00:02:12,662 --> 00:02:15,523 And I am on this stage because I am a model. 44 00:02:15,547 --> 00:02:19,250 I am on this stage because I am a pretty, white woman, 45 00:02:19,274 --> 00:02:22,015 and in my industry, we call that a sexy girl. 46 00:02:22,039 --> 00:02:24,886 I'm going to answer the questions that people always ask me, 47 00:02:24,910 --> 00:02:26,208 but with an honest twist. 48 00:02:26,232 --> 00:02:29,110 So the first question is, how do you become a model? 49 00:02:29,134 --> 00:02:31,143 I always just say, "Oh, I was scouted," 50 00:02:31,167 --> 00:02:32,325 but that means nothing. 51 00:02:32,349 --> 00:02:35,430 The real way that I became a model 52 00:02:35,454 --> 00:02:38,917 is I won a genetic lottery, and I am the recipient of a legacy, 53 00:02:38,941 --> 00:02:41,037 and maybe you're wondering what is a legacy. 54 00:02:41,061 --> 00:02:43,783 Well, for the past few centuries 55 00:02:43,807 --> 00:02:49,301 we have defined beauty not just as health and youth 56 00:02:49,325 --> 00:02:53,087 and symmetry that we're biologically programmed to admire, 57 00:02:53,111 --> 00:02:56,623 but also as tall, slender figures, 58 00:02:56,647 --> 00:02:59,870 and femininity and white skin. 59 00:02:59,894 --> 00:03:01,942 And this is a legacy that was built for me, 60 00:03:01,966 --> 00:03:04,416 and it's a legacy that I've been cashing out on. 61 00:03:04,440 --> 00:03:06,470 And I know there are people in the audience 62 00:03:06,494 --> 00:03:08,186 who are skeptical at this point, 63 00:03:08,210 --> 00:03:10,687 and maybe there are some fashionistas who are like, 64 00:03:10,711 --> 00:03:13,230 "Wait. Naomi. Tyra. Joan Smalls. Liu Wen." 65 00:03:13,254 --> 00:03:16,397 And first, I commend you on your model knowledge. Very impressive. 66 00:03:16,421 --> 00:03:18,053 (Laughter) 67 00:03:18,077 --> 00:03:21,606 But unfortunately, I have to inform you that in 2007, 68 00:03:21,630 --> 00:03:24,116 a very inspired NYU Ph.D. student 69 00:03:24,140 --> 00:03:27,742 counted all the models on the runway, every single one that was hired, 70 00:03:27,766 --> 00:03:30,870 and of the 677 models that were hired, 71 00:03:30,894 --> 00:03:34,387 only 27, or less than four percent, were non-white. 72 00:03:35,637 --> 00:03:37,570 The next question people always ask is, 73 00:03:37,594 --> 00:03:39,219 "Can I be a model when I grow up?" 74 00:03:39,243 --> 00:03:42,877 And the first answer is, "I don't know, they don't put me in charge of that." 75 00:03:42,901 --> 00:03:44,294 But the second answer, 76 00:03:44,318 --> 00:03:47,072 and what I really want to say to these little girls is, 77 00:03:47,096 --> 00:03:49,086 "Why? You know? You can be anything. 78 00:03:49,110 --> 00:03:51,356 You could be the President of the United States, 79 00:03:51,380 --> 00:03:53,157 or the inventor of the next Internet, 80 00:03:53,181 --> 00:03:55,139 or a ninja cardiothoracic surgeon poet, 81 00:03:55,163 --> 00:03:57,830 which would be awesome, because you'd be the first one." 82 00:03:57,854 --> 00:04:00,016 (Laughter) 83 00:04:00,040 --> 00:04:02,374 If, after this amazing list, they still are like, 84 00:04:02,398 --> 00:04:04,303 "No, no, Cameron, I want to be a model," 85 00:04:04,327 --> 00:04:05,941 well, then I say, "Be my boss." 86 00:04:05,965 --> 00:04:07,831 Because I'm not in charge of anything, 87 00:04:07,855 --> 00:04:10,382 and you could be the editor in chief of American Vogue 88 00:04:10,406 --> 00:04:12,542 or the CEO of H&M, or the next Steven Meisel. 89 00:04:13,031 --> 00:04:15,412 Saying that you want to be a model when you grow up 90 00:04:15,436 --> 00:04:18,770 is akin to saying that you want to win the Powerball when you grow up. 91 00:04:18,794 --> 00:04:22,214 It's out of your control, and it's awesome, 92 00:04:22,238 --> 00:04:23,640 and it's not a career path. 93 00:04:24,316 --> 00:04:28,283 I will demonstrate for you now 10 years of accumulated model knowledge, 94 00:04:28,307 --> 00:04:30,212 because unlike cardiothoracic surgeons, 95 00:04:30,236 --> 00:04:32,938 it can just be distilled right now. 96 00:04:32,962 --> 00:04:36,022 So, if the photographer is right there, 97 00:04:36,046 --> 00:04:38,103 the light is right there, like a nice HMI, 98 00:04:38,127 --> 00:04:40,274 and the client says, "We want a walking shot," 99 00:04:40,298 --> 00:04:43,982 this leg goes first, nice and long, this arm goes back, this arm goes forward, 100 00:04:44,006 --> 00:04:46,924 the head is at three quarters, and you just go back and forth, 101 00:04:46,948 --> 00:04:49,948 just do that, and then you look back at your imaginary friends, 102 00:04:49,972 --> 00:04:51,691 300, 400, 500 times. 103 00:04:51,715 --> 00:04:53,395 (Laughter) 104 00:04:53,419 --> 00:04:55,206 It will look something like this. 105 00:04:55,230 --> 00:04:57,417 (Laughter) 106 00:04:57,441 --> 00:05:00,369 Hopefully less awkward than that one in the middle. 107 00:05:00,393 --> 00:05:02,944 That was... I don't know what happened there. 108 00:05:02,968 --> 00:05:05,075 Unfortunately, after you've gone to school, 109 00:05:05,099 --> 00:05:07,429 and you have a résumé and you've done a few jobs, 110 00:05:07,453 --> 00:05:08,945 you can't say anything anymore, 111 00:05:08,969 --> 00:05:12,016 so if you say you want to be the President of the United States, 112 00:05:12,040 --> 00:05:14,446 but your résumé reads, "Underwear Model: 10 years," 113 00:05:14,470 --> 00:05:15,876 people give you a funny look. 114 00:05:15,900 --> 00:05:18,488 The next question is, "Do they retouch all the photos?" 115 00:05:18,512 --> 00:05:20,893 And yeah, they pretty much retouch all the photos, 116 00:05:20,917 --> 00:05:23,526 but that is only a small component of what's happening. 117 00:05:24,006 --> 00:05:26,724 This picture is the very first picture that I ever took, 118 00:05:26,748 --> 00:05:29,557 and it's also the very first time that I had worn a bikini, 119 00:05:29,581 --> 00:05:31,361 and I didn't even have my period yet. 120 00:05:31,385 --> 00:05:34,512 I know we're getting personal, but I was a young girl. 121 00:05:34,536 --> 00:05:37,786 This is what I looked like with my grandma just a few months earlier. 122 00:05:39,016 --> 00:05:41,192 Here's me on the same day as this shoot. 123 00:05:41,216 --> 00:05:42,560 My friend got to come. 124 00:05:42,584 --> 00:05:45,832 Here's me at a slumber party a few days before I shot French Vogue. 125 00:05:46,679 --> 00:05:49,293 Here's me on the soccer team and in V Magazine. 126 00:05:50,787 --> 00:05:52,223 And here's me today. 127 00:05:52,247 --> 00:05:54,283 And I hope what you're seeing 128 00:05:54,307 --> 00:05:56,481 is that these pictures are not pictures of me. 129 00:05:56,505 --> 00:05:57,919 They are constructions, 130 00:05:57,943 --> 00:06:00,847 and they are constructions by a group of professionals, 131 00:06:00,871 --> 00:06:03,967 by hairstylists and makeup artists and photographers and stylists 132 00:06:03,991 --> 00:06:07,183 and all of their assistants and pre-production and post-production, 133 00:06:07,207 --> 00:06:08,215 and they build this. 134 00:06:08,239 --> 00:06:09,309 That's not me. 135 00:06:09,333 --> 00:06:11,730 Okay, so the next question people always ask me is, 136 00:06:11,754 --> 00:06:13,080 "Do you get free stuff?" 137 00:06:13,104 --> 00:06:14,150 (Laughter) 138 00:06:14,174 --> 00:06:17,421 I do have too many 8-inch heels which I never get to wear, 139 00:06:17,445 --> 00:06:19,040 except for earlier, 140 00:06:19,064 --> 00:06:22,525 but the free stuff that I get is the free stuff that I get in real life, 141 00:06:22,549 --> 00:06:24,779 and that's what we don't like to talk about. 142 00:06:24,803 --> 00:06:26,070 I grew up in Cambridge, 143 00:06:26,094 --> 00:06:28,666 and one time I went into a store and I forgot my money 144 00:06:28,690 --> 00:06:30,798 and they gave me the dress for free. 145 00:06:30,822 --> 00:06:33,318 When I was a teenager, I was driving with my friend 146 00:06:33,342 --> 00:06:36,009 who was an awful driver and she ran a red and of course, 147 00:06:36,033 --> 00:06:37,222 we got pulled over, 148 00:06:37,246 --> 00:06:41,053 and all it took was a "Sorry, officer," and we were on our way. 149 00:06:42,363 --> 00:06:45,545 And I got these free things because of how I look, 150 00:06:45,569 --> 00:06:48,364 not who I am, and there are people paying a cost 151 00:06:48,388 --> 00:06:50,606 for how they look and not who they are. 152 00:06:50,630 --> 00:06:52,250 I live in New York, and last year, 153 00:06:52,274 --> 00:06:56,053 of the 140,000 teenagers that were stopped and frisked, 154 00:06:56,077 --> 00:07:00,092 86% of them were black and Latino, and most of them were young men. 155 00:07:00,116 --> 00:07:04,578 And there are only 177,000 young black and Latino men in New York, 156 00:07:04,602 --> 00:07:07,317 so for them, it's not a question of, "Will I get stopped?" 157 00:07:07,341 --> 00:07:10,399 but "How many times will I get stopped? When will I get stopped?" 158 00:07:10,423 --> 00:07:11,995 When I was researching this talk, 159 00:07:12,019 --> 00:07:15,174 I found out that of the 13-year-old girls in the United States, 160 00:07:15,198 --> 00:07:17,861 53% don't like their bodies, 161 00:07:17,885 --> 00:07:20,854 and that number goes to 78% by the time that they're 17. 162 00:07:21,981 --> 00:07:24,879 So, the last question people ask me is, 163 00:07:24,903 --> 00:07:26,503 "What is it like to be a model?" 164 00:07:26,527 --> 00:07:28,910 And I think the answer that they're looking for is, 165 00:07:28,934 --> 00:07:31,854 "If you are a little bit skinnier and you have shinier hair, 166 00:07:31,878 --> 00:07:34,651 you will be so happy and fabulous." 167 00:07:34,675 --> 00:07:36,210 And when we're backstage, 168 00:07:36,234 --> 00:07:38,757 we give an answer that maybe makes it seem like that. 169 00:07:38,781 --> 00:07:42,261 We say, "It's really amazing to travel, and it's amazing to get to work 170 00:07:42,285 --> 00:07:44,885 with creative, inspired, passionate people." 171 00:07:44,909 --> 00:07:48,052 And those things are true, but they're only one half of the story, 172 00:07:48,076 --> 00:07:50,654 because the thing that we never say on camera, 173 00:07:50,678 --> 00:07:52,750 that I have never said on camera, is, 174 00:07:52,774 --> 00:07:54,146 "I am insecure." 175 00:07:55,158 --> 00:07:59,306 And I'm insecure because I have to think about what I look like every day. 176 00:08:00,600 --> 00:08:03,572 And if you ever are wondering, 177 00:08:03,596 --> 00:08:07,526 "If I have thinner thighs and shinier hair, will I be happier?" 178 00:08:07,550 --> 00:08:09,455 you just need to meet a group of models, 179 00:08:09,479 --> 00:08:13,405 because they have the thinnest thighs, the shiniest hair and the coolest clothes, 180 00:08:13,429 --> 00:08:16,872 and they're the most physically insecure women probably on the planet. 181 00:08:16,896 --> 00:08:18,278 When I was writing this talk, 182 00:08:18,302 --> 00:08:21,271 I found it very difficult to strike an honest balance, 183 00:08:21,295 --> 00:08:22,729 because on the one hand, 184 00:08:22,753 --> 00:08:25,165 I felt very uncomfortable to come out here and say, 185 00:08:25,189 --> 00:08:28,784 "Look I've received all these benefits from a deck stacked in my favor," 186 00:08:28,808 --> 00:08:31,999 and it also felt really uncomfortable to follow that up with, 187 00:08:32,023 --> 00:08:34,387 "and it doesn't always make me happy." 188 00:08:34,411 --> 00:08:40,286 But mostly it was difficult to unpack a legacy of gender and racial oppression 189 00:08:40,310 --> 00:08:42,418 when I am one of the biggest beneficiaries. 190 00:08:43,822 --> 00:08:46,279 But I'm also happy and honored to be up here 191 00:08:46,303 --> 00:08:49,515 and I think that it's great that I got to come 192 00:08:49,539 --> 00:08:53,212 before 10 or 20 or 30 years had passed and I'd had more agency in my career, 193 00:08:53,236 --> 00:08:56,710 because maybe then I wouldn't tell the story of how I got my first job, 194 00:08:56,734 --> 00:08:59,607 or maybe I wouldn't tell the story of how I paid for college, 195 00:08:59,631 --> 00:09:01,304 which seems so important right now. 196 00:09:02,074 --> 00:09:03,972 If there's a takeaway to this talk, 197 00:09:03,996 --> 00:09:07,599 I hope it's that we all feel more comfortable acknowledging 198 00:09:07,623 --> 00:09:11,566 the power of image in our perceived successes 199 00:09:11,590 --> 00:09:13,466 and our perceived failures. 200 00:09:13,490 --> 00:09:14,842 Thank you. 201 00:09:14,866 --> 00:09:16,970 (Applause)